Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
"Yes. But how can she affect Alwynne and me? Of course I know what a lot
Alwynne thinks of her. She's rather delightful on the subject. Thinks
her perfection, and so on. Alwynne is naïve; conveys more than she knows
or intends, sometimes. And she never looks at her god's feet, does she?
'Clare' and 'Clare' and 'Clare.' Personally, I imagine her a bit of a
brute."
"I try to be fair. She is fond of Alwynne."
"Why not? But what's that got to do with Alwynne's caring for me, if I
am lucky enough to make her? And I'm--conceitedly sure--that it's only a
question of waking Alwynne up."
"You don't know Clare. If once she knows, she'll never let the child
go."
"But if Alwynne were engaged to me?"
"She'll never allow it. She'll play on Alwynne's affection for her."
"But why? I shouldn't interfere with their friendship."
"My dear Roger--marriage ends friendship automatically. Clare would be
shrewd enough to see that. And even--otherwise--she would never share.
You don't guess how jealous women are."
Roger leant back in his chair with a gesture of bewilderment.
"My dearest cousin! The age of sorcery is over. You talk as if Alwynne
were under a spell."
"Practically she is. Of course Clare would put it on the highest
grounds--unsuitability--a waste of talents. She pretends to despise
domesticity. Alwynne would be hypnotised into repeating her arguments as
her own opinion."
"Hypnotism?"
"Oh, not literally. But she really does influence some women, and young
girls especially, in the most uncanny way. I've watched it so often."
"She's not married?"
"She hardly ever speaks to a man. I've seen her at gaieties, when she
was younger. She was always rather stranded. Men left her alone.
Something in her seems to repel them. I think she fully realised it. And
she's a proud woman. There's tragedy in it."
"Does she repel you?"
"Not in that way. I dislike her. I think her dangerous. I'm intensely
sorry for her. And I do understand something of the attraction she
exercises, better than you can, though it has never affected me. You
see--eccentricity--abnormality--does not affect women as it does men.
And she's brilliantly clever."
"So is Alwynne--you wouldn't call her abnormal?"
"Alwynne? Never! She's as sound and sweet as an apple. But--and it means
a good deal at her age--she's in abnormal hands. Clare Hartill is
abnormal, spiritually perverse--and she's fastened on the child. They
adore each other. It's terribly bad for Alwynne. As it is, it will take
her months to shake off Clare's influence, even with you to help her.
That is, if you succeed in detaching her. I'm useless, of course.
Loving--just loving--is no good. You can only influence if you are
strong enough to wound. I merely irritate. I'm weak. But you could do as
you like, I believe. Take her away from that selfish woman, Roger! It's
blighting her."
"You think," he said, "that she would be content with me--with marriage
as a career? Of course, Miss Hartill's right about her talents."
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