Lesbians -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Women teachers -- Fiction
She read it and re-read, twisting it this way and that, for it was
barely visible in the wet dusk. It seemed an eternity before its full
meaning dawned upon her. And yet she had known all there was to know
when she confronted the messenger boy (Oh, Destiny is up to date) and
took her sentence from his grimy hand.
_I am going to marry Roger._
"Very well, Alwynne!" Clare flung up her head, up and back. Her face was
drowned in the shadows of the crimson curtain, but her neck caught the
last of the light, shone like old marble. The whole soul of her showed
for an instant in its defiant outline, in the involuntary pulsation that
quivered across its rigidity, in the uncontrollable flutter beneath the
chin.
The thin, capable fingers twisted and clenched over the sodden paper.
She moved at last, spoke into space. Passion, anger, and the cool
contempt of the school-mistress for a mutinous class, mingled
grotesquely in her voice.
"Very well, Alwynne! Just as you please, of course. There is no more to
be said." She tossed away the little ball of paper as she spoke.
She wandered aimlessly about the room; turned to her book-shelves after
a while, and stood a long time, pulling out volume after volume,
opening each at random, reading a page, closing the book again, letting
it slide from her hand, never troubling to replace it. She was tired at
last and turned to her writing-table.
It was piled high with exercise-books, and she corrected a couple before
she swept them also aside.
The rain had not faltered in its swishing downfall. It beat against the
panes, and on to the sill, and dripped down into a pool beneath the open
window.
"She will have to come back on Monday," said Clare suddenly. "She can't
go off like that. There's the school----" She broke off abruptly, as a
gust of wind soughed by.
_I cannot come. I have gone to Dene. I am going to marry Roger._ She
could hear Alwynne's voice in it, answering.
"But why?" cried Clare piteously. "Why? What is it? What have I done?"
"S'hush!" sighed the rain. "S'hush!"
"I loved her," cried Clare. "I loved her. What have I done?"
"S'hush!" sobbed the rain. "S'hush! S'hush!"
She turned to the darkening windows, and started, and shuddered away
again, stricken dumb and shaking. A pool of something red and wet was
spreading over the polished boards, and a thin trickle was stealing
forward to her feet.
Blood?
Fool.... The red of the curtains reflected, tingeing a pool of
rain-water.... Blood, nevertheless.... She had forgotten Louise.
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