Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
General
Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
"My dear Master,--Don't be anxious on my account. No one will do
anything to me. They do not know down in the village that you are gone
away, and they are frightened of the wolf-traps, for no one has told
them that we cleared them away. Every night I see to the pistols and
guns in case they should come; but they won't come. As for the wound, I
have quite forgotten it. The grocer at Bockeldorf gave me some English
sticking-plaster, and when it peeled off, it was entirely healed. The
thaw and floods are now over, thank God. For several days I was obliged
to go with very little food, because the water was too high on the
meadows for me to wade through, and I would rather have died than go
down to Herr Merckel. Ah! dear master, I am so glad that you are coming
home soon; for I seem to have nothing to live for, when I have not you
to wait upon. I climb up on the Cats' Bridge very often and wait for
you there, so that when you come you shall not find it drawn up. Please
don't come in the night, nor on Thursday before seven, because then I
shall be going to Bockeldorf. The snow is all gone now, and the grass
is beginning to get quite green. Yesterday I heard the swallows
twittering in the nest they have built in the eaves; but I haven't seen
them yet. Now and then I suffer from stitch in my side, and giddiness,
and I have not much appetite. I believe it comes from being so much
alone, which I cannot bear. But I don't know why I should tell you all
this. Perhaps it is because you were always so kind to me. I can't help
always remembering your great kindness to me.--Your _Hochgeboren's_
humble servant,
"Regina Hackelberg."
This letter had filled him with pleasure and satisfaction, for it
showed on the one hand that she had very reasonably bowed to the
inevitable, and that there was no cause for his anxiety; and on the
other, that she still faithfully clung and belonged to him heart and
soul. And glad as he might be to feel his blood purged of the
unwholesome excitement with which she had inspired it, he could not
help being pleased at this proof of her remaining ever his true and
willing servant.
His belief in Helene's sacred influence on his destiny had, he
imagined, received a new impetus, since her note had saved him in an
hour of imminent danger. He wore it gratefully as a talisman on his
heart, even if he did not read it so often, and with such delight, as
he read Regina's.
Soon after his arrival in the capital, an intense yearning had drawn
him to the Cathedral, where he had sought out the old altar-piece,
which contained her living image. He experienced a bitter
disappointment. The Madonna amidst her lilies and roses appeared
absolutely ridiculous. She looked to him now as if she had been baked
out of _Marzepan_, and the flowers, with their stiff stalks and
drooping heads, appeared as unnatural and insipid as their doll
custodian.
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