Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
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Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
Once again he reviewed the daring enterprise of the last few hours, and
the thickly curtained windows of the parsonage recurred to his memory.
How careful she had been to keep herself out of his sight and reach,
and how well she had succeeded! Surely she must know what had brought
him into the village--must know that to-morrow he would quit it,
perhaps never to return.
Had she no longing to see him just once before his departure, and to
wish him God speed? The hour she had told him to wait patiently for,
was it not time it came to-day? What availed the letter he wore close
to his heart, if the hand that penned it was refused to him? Her image
was now quite effaced from his heart; it could no longer lead him to
battle, unless the impression was renewed.
"If she loves me, she will send for me. If she doesn't send for me, she
must be lost to me for ever."
Having arrived at this conclusion he left the wood and bent his
footsteps in the direction of the river. The park, in its new spring
dress of lightest green, smiled him a welcome. A shimmering crown of
silver rested on the tall poplars, and the dark masses of ivy glistened
on their slender trunks.
How beautiful was this home, that had been a source of such infinite
pain and sorrow! How his whole being yearned for that impoverished
dwelling where he had lodged like a criminal! Was this longing owing to
the woman who had voluntarily shared his loneliness and wretchedness,
and who had tried to make her own misery the foundation of a new
happiness for him?
But he had no reason to fear what was to come. He felt that since the
Fatherland had summoned him, he was safe from all weak and vicious
instincts. Even long before this he believed he had completely freed
himself from her influence. Their relations now were merely those of
master and servant.
One more night, and the priest's curse would be remembered only as an
old man's idle babble. Yet what would become of her? She must look
after herself. He had provided for her future. No one could say he was
bound to do more. And to-day he would renew his bounty twofold or
threefold, so that she would stand in the position of a wealthy widow.
When thousands of women and children would perish of hunger in
broken-hearted distress, without any one heeding their fate, why should
he concern himself so much about deserting this one strange girl and
leaving her in solitude?
He steeled and hardened his heart, for it had begun to beat faster....
And as he mounted the steep ascent to the Cats' Bridge, he caught sight
of the familiar figure among the bushes above, illumined by the setting
sun.
"Regina," he called. But she did not move.
"Come and meet me, Regina!"
Then with elevated shoulders she slowly glided nearer, the fingers of
her left hand outspread, and pressed against her breast.
He looked at her, and was horrified. "My God!" he exclaimed, "how
changed you are!"
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