Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
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Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
Regina remained tongue-tied, and performed her household duties swiftly
and noiselessly. She moved about his room without lifting her eyes to
his face, and if he addressed a word to her, shrank away with a
startled look. But her answers to his questions, though given in a
hesitating and embarrassed manner, were always clear, comprehensive,
and to the point. Sometimes days together went by without their
exchanging a syllable. Yet it was on these days he observed her in
secret all the more closely, watching her as she laid the table,
following her with his eyes as she crossed the little plot of garden
and disappeared into the bushes. He caught himself constantly wondering
what was passing in her mind. What did she think about all day long?
Was it possible that her whole existence revolved round him and his
personal comforts, a man who was nothing to her, who had not even
rewarded her labours so far, with a brass farthing?
He felt ashamed when he thought of the innumerable self-sacrifices he
accepted from her with such haughty indifference, and determined to be
more friendly and conversational towards her in the future, so that she
might feel the unpleasantness of her position less acutely. But a
certain unaccountable shyness on his side seemed to hinder his putting
these good intentions into practice. He no longer hated her. His
aversion had yielded to something like regard at sight of so much
unselfish loyalty and untiring industry; and the result was that he
felt more than ever a constraint in conversing with her. Something came
between them, a kind of mysterious veil that enveloped her and rendered
her unapproachable as a stranger. It seemed almost as if the spirit of
his father hovered about her, preventing by its ghostly presence any
intercourse between them. Sometimes he wondered if it were her shame
that invested her with that strange fascination that vice is said to
exercise on inexperienced youth. Or was it the magnitude of her
misfortunes that gave her an unconscious power and charm?
Often when she brought in his supper, or turned back the counterpane
from his bed, he would look up from his work and endeavour to open a
conversation. But his tongue would cleave to the roof of his mouth, he
could never think of anything to talk to her about that was not beneath
his dignity. So, after all, only curt and harsh commands crossed his
lips.
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