Regina, or the Sins of the FathersSudermann, Hermann
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Regina, or the Sins of the Fathers
Sudermann, Hermann
Fiction
But in their relations, that had become so friendly, there was one
blot, and the knowledge of it pierced him at times like a poisonous
arrow. Often, after he had been watching her in silence, he was
tormented with a desire to penetrate into the secrets of her past, and
to cross-examine her on the subject of her intercourse with the dead.
For long he kept back the questions that burned on the tip of his
tongue, feeling that little good could come of asking them; but at last
he felt driven to speak.
"She is the only living witness of the catastrophe," he thought;
"what's more, the only accomplice. She alone can give authentic
information."
And one evening he broke the silence which had been so enjoyable to
both, with a brusque demand that she should tell him all she knew.
She changed colour, and dropped her hands in her lap.
"You'll only be angry with me again, _Herr_," she stammered.
"Do as I bid you."
She still hesitated. "It's ... so long ago," she whispered piteously,
"and I don't know how to tell things."
"But you can at least answer questions."
Then she resigned herself to fate.
"Who was it that first suggested to you the midnight sortie?"
"The _gnädiger Herr_."
He clenched his teeth. "When and how?"
"The _gnädiger Herr_ ordered me to wait at table. The great candelabra,
that was hardly ever lit as a rule, was burning, and shone on the gold
uniforms of the French officers, and it was all so dazzling I felt
quite giddy when I carried the soup into the hall. They all laughed and
pointed at me, and spoke in French, which I didn't understand."
"How many were there?"
"Five, and one with grey hair, who was the General, and had the most
gold on his coat; and when I brought him the soup he caught hold of me
round the waist, and I put the plate down on his finger and pinched it.
Then they all laughed again, and the _gnädiger Herr_ said, 'Don't be so
clumsy, Regina.' I felt so ashamed and vexed at his saying that that I
said, quite loud, I didn't see why I should wait if I was only to be
scolded for it. Then they laughed louder than ever, and the General
began to speak German, like little children speak it. 'You are a
plucky, pretty little girl,' he said; and the _gnädiger Herr_ told him
I was a girl who might prove useful to him and them all--or something
of the kind. And when I brought in the liqueur at the end of dinner, he
drew me down to him and whispered in my ear. I was to go to him in the
night."
He started up. "And you went?"
She cast down her eyes.
"Ah, _Herr_," she said imploringly, "why do you ask me? I wish you
wouldn't. I had often done it before, and I saw no harm in it then."
He felt his blood boiling.
"How old were you at that time?"
"Fifteen."
"And so corrupt--so----" His voice died away in wrath.
She cast an unspeakably sad and reproachful glance at him.
"I knew you'd be angry," she said, "but I can't make myself out better
than I am."
"Continue your story," he cried.
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