Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the HeartMitchell, Donald Grant
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Reveries of a Bachelor; or, A Book of the Heart
Mitchell, Donald Grant
American essays -- 19th century
Yet always, day by day, hour by hour, second by second, the hard present
is elbowing us off into that great land of the future. Our souls,
indeed, wander to it, as to a home-land; they run beyond time and space,
beyond planets and suns, beyond far-off suns and comets, until, like
blind flies, they are lost in the blaze of immensity, and can only grope
their way back to our earth, and our time, by the cunning of instinct.
Cut out the future—even that little future which is the EVENING of our
life—and what a fall into vacuity. Forbid those earnest forays over the
borders of Now, and on what spoils would the soul live?
For myself, I delight to wander there, and to weave every day the
passing life into the coming life—so closely that I may be unconscious
of the joining. And if so be that I am able, I would make the whole
piece bear fair proportions and just figures—like those tapestries on
which nuns work by inches and finish with their lives, or like those
grand frescos which poet artists have wrought on the vaults of old
cathedrals, gaunt and colossal—appearing mere daubs of carmine and
azure, as they lay upon their backs, working out a hand’s breadth at a
time—but when complete, showing symmetrical and glorious.
But not alone does the soul wander to those glittering heights where
fame sits, with plumes waving in zephyrs of applause; there belong to it
other appetities, which range wide and constantly over the broad
future-land. We are not merely working, intellectual machines, but
social puzzles, whose solution is the work of a life. Much as hope may
mean toward the intoxicating joy of distinction, there is another
leaning in the soul, deeper and stronger, toward those pleasures which
the heart pants for, and in whose atmosphere the affections bloom and
ripen.
The first may indeed be uppermost; it may be noisiest; it may drown with
the clamor of midday the nicer sympathies. But all our day is not
midday, and all our life is not noise. Silence is as strong as the soul;
and there is no tempest so wild with blasts but has a wilder lull. There
lies in the depth of every man’s soul a mine of affection, which from
time to time will burn with the seething heat of a volcano and heave up
lava-like monuments, through all the cold strata of his commoner nature.
One may hide his warmer feelings—he may paint them dimly—he may crowd
them out of his sailing chart, where he only sets down the harbors for
traffic; yet in his secret heart he will map out upon the great country
of the Future fairy islands of love and of joy. There he will be sure to
wander when his soul is lost in those quiet and hallowed hopes which
take hold on heaven.
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