Slavery -- United States -- Fiction; Underground Railroad -- Fiction
But when she had finished she pushed it all aside and dropped her face
on her arm and her whole body trembled with a long, deep sob. Her heart
was answering the call of his, which she had heard and refused to
heed, through every line of his letters. They were so far apart, their
faces were set toward such hostile ideals! And yet across that deep
gulf their spirits clamored and their bodies yearned for presence, for
companionship, each for its mate. Through a blur of tears she took up
her pen and groped for a fresh sheet of paper.
“Oh, Jeff, Jeff,” her pen was flying across the page, “how will it
be possible to endure this separation longer? Surely it is wrong for
people who love as we do to tear themselves apart like this. I cannot
endure it, and yet I cannot consent. Come then, and carry me away in
spite of myself.” Ah, it was a relief to give way to her feelings, to
write the things she longed to say, even though she did not intend
that he should ever read them. The pain in her face, the drawn look of
mental suffering, began to fade out of it. “Tie my feet and my arms,
if you must, so that I cannot run from you. Stop my lips with kisses,
so that I cannot say I will not go. Take me in your arms and carry me
away, anywhere, but do not let me deny our love any longer.”
It was the cry of the primitive woman, whose sane instinct for the
strong mate lives on through all the thousand and one denials and
perversions of civilization. From the days when courtship was seizure,
and first choice belonged to the strongest, has the wish to be won in
spite of herself lived on in the heart of woman. It has been buried
deep and ever deeper beneath the accruing refinements of humanity, and
forced to find dwarfed expression in the subterfuges with which the
civilized woman evades and refuses her wooer, that finally she may make
pretense of her unwilling capture. But now, from beneath the depths of
a million years, it rose suddenly to the surface of a strong woman’s
heart and overpowered all her strength.
Her hand was shaking and her bosom heaving as she put the sheet to one
side. There was a knock at the door and Charlotte’s voice called out:
“Rhoda! Please let me have some of your paper. I’ve used mine all up.”
Opening her door a mere crack she handed out paper and envelopes,
for she had no wish to give her sister’s inquiring mind a chance to
speculate upon the reason for her agitated countenance. But it was only
a moment more, with a little resolute drawing in of her breath and a
pressure of her lips, and a minute or two before the mirror, until her
composure was restored. Then she heard her mother in the hall: “Come,
Rhoda! Come, Charlotte! Dinner’s ready!”
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