Latter Day Saint women -- Fiction; Polygamy -- Fiction; Utah -- Fiction; Western stories; Women ranchers -- Fiction
“What do I care who she is or what she was!” he cried, passionately.
And he knew it was not his old self speaking. It was this softer,
gentler man who had awakened to new thoughts in the quiet valley.
Tenderness, masterful in him now, matched the absence of joy and
blunted the knife-edge of entering jealousy. Strong and passionate
effort of will, surprising to him, held back the poison from piercing
his soul.
“Wait!... Wait!” he cried, as if calling. His hand pressed his breast,
and he might have called to the pang there. “Wait! It’s all so
strange—so wonderful. Anything can happen. Who am I to judge her? I’ll
glory in my love for her. But I can’t tell it—can’t give up to it.”
Certainly he could not then decide her future. Marrying her was
impossible in Surprise Valley and in any village south of Sterling.
Even without the mask she had once worn she would easily have been
recognized as Oldring’s Rider. No man who had ever seen her would
forget her, regardless of his ignorance as to her sex. Then more
poignant than all other argument was the fact that he did not want to
take her away from Surprise Valley. He resisted all thought of that. He
had brought her to the most beautiful and wildest place of the uplands;
he had saved her, nursed her back to strength, watched her bloom as one
of the valley lilies; he knew her life there to be pure and sweet—she
belonged to him, and he loved her. Still these were not all the reasons
why he did not want to take her away. Where could they go? He feared
the rustlers—he feared the riders—he feared the Mormons. And if he
should ever succeed in getting Bess safely away from these immediate
perils, he feared the sharp eyes of women and their tongues, the big
outside world with its problems of existence. He must wait to decide
her future, which, after all, was deciding his own. But between her
future and his something hung impending. Like Balancing Rock, which
waited darkly over the steep gorge, ready to close forever the outlet
to Deception Pass, that nameless thing, as certain yet intangible as
fate, must fall and close forever all doubts and fears of the future.
“I’ve dreamed,” muttered Venters, as he rose. “Well, why not?... To
dream is happiness! But let me just once see this clearly wholly; then
I can go on dreaming till the thing falls. I’ve got to tell Jane
Withersteen. I’ve dangerous trips to take. I’ve work here to make
comfort for this girl. She’s mine. I’ll fight to keep her safe from
that old life. I’ve already seen her forget it. I love her. And if a
beast ever rises in me I’ll burn my hand off before I lay it on her
with shameful intent. And, by God! sooner or later I’ll kill the man
who hid her and kept her in Deception Pass!”
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