Latter Day Saint women -- Fiction; Polygamy -- Fiction; Utah -- Fiction; Western stories; Women ranchers -- Fiction
Jane retired to the seclusion of her room. Lassiter’s subtle
forecasting of disaster, Venters’s forced optimism, neither remained in
mind. Material loss weighed nothing in the balance with other losses
she was sustaining. She wondered dully at her sitting there, hands
folded listlessly, with a kind of numb deadness to the passing of time
and the passing of her riches. She thought of Venters’s friendship. She
had not lost that, but she had lost him. Lassiter’s friendship—that was
more than love—it would endure, but soon he, too, would be gone. Little
Fay slept dreamlessly upon the bed, her golden curls streaming over the
pillow. Jane had the child’s worship. Would she lose that, too? And if
she did, what then would be left? Conscience thundered at her that
there was left her religion. Conscience thundered that she should be
grateful on her knees for this baptism of fire; that through
misfortune, sacrifice, and suffering her soul might be fused pure gold.
But the old, spontaneous, rapturous spirit no more exalted her. She
wanted to be a woman—not a martyr. Like the saint of old who mortified
his flesh, Jane Withersteen had in her the temper for heroic martyrdom,
if by sacrificing herself she could save the souls of others. But here
the damnable verdict blistered her that the more she sacrificed herself
the blacker grew the souls of her churchmen. There was something
terribly wrong with her soul, something terribly wrong with her
churchmen and her religion. In the whirling gulf of her thought there
was yet one shining light to guide her, to sustain her in her hope; and
it was that, despite her errors and her frailties and her blindness,
she had one absolute and unfaltering hold on ultimate and supreme
justice. That was love. “Love your enemies as yourself!” was a divine
word, entirely free from any church or creed.
Jane’s meditations were disturbed by Lassiter’s soft, tinkling step in
the court. Always he wore the clinking spurs. Always he was in
readiness to ride. She passed out and called him into the huge, dim
hall.
“I think you’ll be safer here. The court is too open,” she said.
“I reckon,” replied Lassiter. “An’ it’s cooler here. The day’s sure
muggy. Well, I went down to the village with Venters.”
“Already! Where is he?” queried Jane, in quick amaze.
“He’s at the corrals. Blake’s helpin’ him get the burros an’ packs
ready. That Blake is a good fellow.”
“Did—did Bern meet Tull?”
“I guess he did,” answered Lassiter, and he laughed dryly.
“Tell me! Oh, you exasperate me! You’re so cool, so calm! For Heaven’s
sake, tell me what happened!”
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