Robert had at that moment under his arm a German treatise on the history
of the Logos doctrine, which afterwards, looking back on the little
scene, he thought it probable Newcome recognised. They turned towards
the rectory together, Newcome still asking abrupt questions as to the
squire, the length of time he was to be away, Elsmere's work, parochial
and literary, during the past six months, the numbers of his Sunday
congregation, of his communicants, etc. Elsmere bore his catechism with
perfect temper, though Newcome's manner had in it a strange and almost
judicial imperativeness.
'Elsmere,' said his questioner presently, after a pause, 'I am going to
have a retreat for priests at the Clergy House next month. Father
H----,' mentioning a famous High Churchman, 'will conduct it. You would
do me a special favour'--and suddenly the face softened, and shone with
all its old magnetism on Elsmere--'if you would come. I believe you
would find nothing to dislike in it, or in our rule, which is a most
simple one.'
Robert smiled, and laid his hand on the other's arm.
'No, Newcome, no; I am in no mood for H----.'
The High Churchman looked at him with a quick and painful anxiety
visible in the stern eyes.
'Will you tell me what that means?'
'It means,' said Robert, clasping his hands tightly behind him, his pace
slackening a little to meet that of Newcome--'it means that if you will
give me your prayers, Newcome, your companionship sometimes, your pity
always, I will thank you from the bottom of my heart. But I am in a
state just now when I must fight my battles for myself, and in God's
sight only!'
It was the first burst of confidence which had passed his lips to any
one but Catherine.
Newcome stood still, a tremor of strong emotion running through the
emaciated face.
'You are in trouble, Elsmere; I felt it, I knew it, when I first saw
you!'
'Yes, I am in trouble,' said Robert quietly.
'Opinions?'
'Opinions, I suppose--or facts,' said Robert, his arms dropping wearily
beside him. 'Have you ever known what it is to be troubled in mind, I
wonder, Newcome?'
And he looked at his companion with a sudden pitiful curiosity.
A kind of flash passed over Mr. Newcome's face.
'_Have I ever known?_' he repeated vaguely, and then he drew his thin
hand, the hand of the ascetic and the mystic, hastily across his eyes,
and was silent--his lips moving, his gaze on the ground, his whole
aspect that of a man wrought out of himself by a sudden passion of
memory.
Robert watched him with surprise, and was just speaking, when Mr.
Newcome looked up, every drawn attenuated feature working painfully.
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