‘Was there never a time when you loved the valley, Rose?’
‘Never!’ cried Rose.
Then she pushed away her work, and leaning her elbows on the table
turned her brilliant face to Catherine. There was frank mutiny in it.
‘By the way, Catherine, are you going to prevent mamma from letting me
go to Berlin for the winter?’
‘And after Berlin, Rose?’ said Catherine, presently, her gaze bent upon
her work.
‘After Berlin? What next?’ said Rose recklessly. ‘Well, after Berlin I
shall try to persuade mamma and Agnes, I suppose, to come and back me up
in London. We could still be some months of the year at Burwood.’
Now she had said it out. But there was something else surely goading the
girl than mere intolerance of the family tradition. The hesitancy, the
moral doubt of her conversation with Langham, seemed to have vanished
wholly in a kind of acrid self-assertion.
Catherine felt a shock sweep through her, It was as though all the
pieties of life, all the sacred assumptions and self-surrenders at the
root of it, were shaken, outraged by the girl’s tone.
‘Do you ever remember,’ she said, looking up, while her voice trembled,
‘what papa wished when he was dying?’
It was her last argument. To Rose she had very seldom used it in so many
words. Probably, it seemed to her too strong, too sacred, to be often
handled.
But Rose sprang up, and pacing the little work-room with her
white wrists locked behind her, she met that argument with all the
concentrated passion which her youth had for years been storing up
against it. Catherine sat presently overwhelmed, bewildered. This
language of a proud and tameless individuality, this modern gospel of
the divine right of self-development--her soul loathed it! And yet,
since that night in Marrisdale, there had been a new yearning in her to
understand.
Suddenly, however, Rose stopped, lost her thread. Two figures were
crossing the lawn, and their shadows were thrown far beyond them by the
fast disappearing sun.
She threw herself down on her chair again with an abrupt--‘Do you see
they have come back? We must go and dress.’
And as she spoke she was conscious of a new sensation altogether--the
sensation of the wild creature lassoed on the prairie, of the bird
exchanging in an instant its glorious freedom of flight for the pitiless
meshes of the net. It was stifling--her whole nature seemed to fight
with it.
Catherine rose and began to put away the books they had been covering.
She had said almost nothing in answer to Rose’s tirade. When she was
ready she came and stood beside her sister a moment, her lips trembling.
At last she stooped and kissed the girl--the kiss of deep, suppressed
feeling--and went away. Rose made no response.
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