Aram was tried by Judge Noel, who, having remarked that this defence
was one of the most ingenious pieces of reasoning that had ever fallen
under his notice, summed up the evidence to the jury, who gave a
verdict of guilty; in consequence of which he received sentence of
death.
After conviction, a clergyman was appointed to attend him, and to
exhort him to an ample confession. Aram appeared to pay proper
attention to what was said, but after the minister had retired, he
formed the resolution of destroying himself; and when the morning
appointed for his execution arrived, the keeper, on proceeding to take
him out of his cell, was surprised to find him almost expiring through
loss of blood, having cut his left arm, above the elbow and near the
wrist, with a razor. A surgeon being sent for, stopped the bleeding;
but when he was taken to the place of execution, he was so very weak as
to be unable to join in devotion with the clergyman who attended him.
On the table in his cell was found the following paper, containing his
reasons for attempting to commit suicide:――“What am I better than my
fathers? To die is natural and necessary. Perfectly sensible of this,
I fear no more to die than I did to be born. But the manner of it is
something which should, in my opinion, be decent and manly. I think I
have regarded both these points. Certainly nobody has a better right
to dispose of man’s life than himself; and he, not others, should
determine how. As for any indignities offered to my body, or silly
reflections on my faith and morals, they are, as they always were,
things indifferent to me. I think, though contrary to the common way of
thinking, I wrong no man by this, and hope it is not offensive to the
eternal Being that formed me and the world: and as by this, I injure
no man, no man can reasonably be offended. I solicitously recommend
myself to the eternal and almighty Being, the God of nature, if I have
done amiss. But perhaps I have not; and I hope this thing will never
be imputed to me. Though I am now stained by malevolence, and suffer
by prejudice, I hope to rise fair and unblemished. My life was not
polluted, my morals were irreproachable, and my opinions orthodox. I
slept sound till three o’clock, awaked, and wrote these lines:――
“Come, pleasing rest, eternal slumber, fall,
Seal mine, that once must seal the eyes of all;
Calm and composed my soul her journey takes,
No guilt that troubles, and no heart that aches;
Adieu! thou sun, all bright like her arise;
Adieu! fair friends, and all that’s good and wise.”
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