This time it was I who was holding the light before his face. It was
calm and colourless; his eyes were fixed on the ground reflectively,
with the appearance of profound and quiet absorption. But suddenly I
perceived the convulsive clutch of his hand on the skirt of his coat. It
was as if accidentally I had looked inside the man--upon the strength of
his illusions, on his desire, on his passion. Now he will fly at me,
I thought, with a tremendously convincing certitude. Now------All my
muscles, stiffening, answered the appeal of that thought of battle.
He said, “Won’t you give me that light?”
And I understood he demanded a surrender.
“I would see you die first where you stand,” was my answer.
This object in my hand had become endowed with moral
meaning--significant, like a symbol--only to be torn from me with my
life.
He lifted his head; the light twinkled in his eyes. “Oh, _I_ won’t die,”
he said, with that bizarre suggestion of humour in his face, in his
subdued voice. “But it is a small thing; and you are young; it may be
yet worth your while to try and please me--this time.”
Before I could answer, Seraphina, from some little distance, called out
hurriedly:
“Don Juan, your arm.”
Her voice, sounding a little unsteady, made me forget O’Brien, and,
turning my back on him, I ran up to her. She needed my support; and
before us La Chica tottered and stumbled along with the lights, moaning:
“_Madré de Dios!_ What will become of us now! Oh, what will become of us
now!”
“You know what he had asked me to let him do,” Seraphina talked rapidly.
“I made answer, ‘No; give the light to my cousin.’ Then he said, ‘Do you
really wish it, Señorita? I am the older friend.’ I repeated, ‘Give the
light to my cousin, Señor.’ He, then, cruelly, ‘For the young man’s own
sake, reflect, Señorita.’ And he waited before he asked me again, ‘Shall
I surrender it to him?’ I felt death upon my heart, and all my fear for
you--there.” She touched her beautiful throat with a swift movement of
a hand that disappeared at once under the lace. “And because I could
not speak, I------Don Juan, you have just offered me your life--I------
_Misericordia!_ What else was possible? I made with my head the sign
‘Yes.’”
In the stress, hurry, and rapture encompassing my immense gratitude,
I pressed her hand to my side familiarly, as if we had been two lovers
walking in a lane on a serene evening.
“If you had not made that sign, it would have been worse than death--in
my heart,” I said. “He had allied me, too, to renounce my trust, my
light.”
We walked on slowly, accompanied in our sudden silence by the plash of
the fountain at the bottom of the great square of darkness on our left,
and by the piteous moans of La Chica.
“That is what he meant,” said the enchanting voice by my side. “And you
refused. That is your valour.”
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