England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Physicians -- Fiction; Single men -- Fiction
“Not all of them by any means, the idiots,” she replied. “But Rose—yes.
Rose ought to have all she wants. I advised her to. It’s—no don’t
interrupt me—it’s your own doing very largely. You brought her up to be
happy and true to herself. She saw you always at work ministering to
other people—Oh! I know you were paid for it—I’ve paid you myself—money
thrown away too, for I only get worse—but that doesn’t matter: you’re a
soft old thing at heart. Anyway, there was Rose, the apple of your eye,
with a natural sweet disposition, and the centre of your circle of
friends, and the mistress of your easy-going prosperous house, and she
gets into kindly humane habits. Then she marries this refrigerator K.C.,
or whatever he is, and begins to miss everything that she had been used
to. He’s a stupid fellow—he hasn’t even the sense to be ill and touch
her heart that way—he can’t lose his temper—can’t swear—only be politely
rasping now and then—and he gradually wore her down, diluted her
sweetness, crushed her nice impulses, made her live according to Cocker.”
Wonderful, I thought, what a lot the old lady had divined, for I’m sure
Rose never told her in words.
“There was no doubt about his selfishness,” I said.
“As for selfishness,” said Mrs. O’Gorman, “I don’t mind that. That
hasn’t necessarily anything to do with it. All the most attractive men
are selfish, even if the most selfish men are not the most attractive.”
“I wonder if that’s true,” I said.
“Think about the unselfish men you know and you’ll soon realize its
truth,” she replied. “Unselfish men don’t give us any fun at all—I’m
talking as a woman, remember—they make it too easy. The selfish ones
keep us thinking, and when they forget themselves it’s delicious: I mean,
it used to be.” She sighed and laughed. “But it’s about Rose we’re
talking,” she continued. “Having got rid for a while of her husband, she
comes down here and finds that poor boy, her old friend, ill and
miserable, and all the love she ought to have felt for him years ago
suddenly materialized, but a million times stronger, and there you are.
‘Bolt, my lamb,’ that’s what I said to her, although she never asked for
my advice. ‘Bolt, my lamb, and be happy while you can.’”
“Well, I’m—” I began.
“Say it,” she said. “Say you’re damned. Nobody minds. But you’re not
so damned as that poor child would have been if she’d gone back to the
Arctic Zone. I’m old enough to believe that the whole purpose of unhappy
people’s lives is not endurance. I’ve seen too much of it. And so has
every one, especially you doctors. Endurance? No. Let revolt and
escape have a chance too. That is, if people really want them. The
trouble is that really wanting things is so rare. It’s a lukewarm
world!”
“Anyway,” I said, “I’m amazed that you could dare to advise anything so
revolutionary to Rose. It’s a terrible responsibility.”
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