United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
How those polished, cruel-looking instruments sparkled, and glittered,
and flashed; and how the sick man shuddered as he glanced toward the
table where they lay, asking, with quivering lip, if there were no other
alternative save the one their presence suggested.
“None but speedy death!” was the response of the attending surgeon, who
was too much accustomed to just such scenes as this, to appreciate the
feelings of that poor soldier, shrinking so painfully from what they
told him must be if he would live.
“None but speedy death,”—George repeated the words slowly to himself,
dwelling longest upon the last, as if to accustom himself to thoughts of
it.
“Wait a little, wait till I think the matter over,” he said, in reply to
the question, “are you ready?” and turning his face to the wall, so that
those about him should not see the fearful conflict going on, he thought
long and earnestly. Wasn’t it better to die than go back to Annie maimed
and disfigured for life? Better die than lose a portion of the manly
beauty of which he had been so proud. Would Annie love him just the
same, even though the strong right arm, which had toiled for her so
cheerfully, could never work for her again, never encircle her in its
embrace? Would the scarred stump be as dear to her as the well-moulded
limb had been? He did not know, and the tears, which all through the
weary days of his sickness had been kept back, now fell like rain upon
the pillow, as he fancied the meeting between his sweet young wife, and
her poor, crippled husband. The cottage on the hill so earnestly
coveted, would never be theirs now. He could not earn it. He could not
earn _much_ any way, with his left arm, and he groaned aloud, as he
thought of the poor unfortunate seen so often in the Rochester depot,
peddling daily papers. Would he ever come to that? He, who, but a few
months ago had so bright hopes for the future? Would the delicate Annie
he had meant to shield so carefully from every ill of life, yet be
compelled to earn the bread she ate? It was a sad, sad picture the
excited soldier drew of what the future might bring, and the fainting
spirit had almost cried out, “I would rather die!” when there came
stealing across his mind the memory of Annie’s parting words,
“If the body you bring back has in it my George’s heart, I shall love
you all the same.”
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