He crumpled a mass of paper violently together and flung it into the
flames, thrusting it down among the embers with his hand. He felt the
startled amazement growing upon her, and forced his pale lips to speak.
"He would hate it."
Saying this, he tried to smile. Aspasia contemplated him for a while,
her eyes wondering. Then she stretched out her hand and touched his
timidly.
"Don’t be unhappy—let me tell you; I think I understand. Oh! I’m sure
I understand, for we have been friends a little, too, have we not? You
think it’s worse for him to come back. You think he had better be dead,
if she is to die. But she won’t." Aspasia nodded confidently. "I tell
you she won’t die. I’ve just seen Dr. Châtelard; he’s quite satisfied.
I have seen him—Captain English—too. I said to him: ’She won’t die.’
And he said to me: ’I know it.’ He is there outside her room—so strong
and patient. Now," said the girl, and was not, in her innocent wish to
comfort, aware how tenderly she spoke, "now you will let yourself be
glad for yourself, since you’ve got him back, will you not?"
Bethune suddenly turned and caught the gentle hand that touched him in
both his. He broke into sobs—a man’s difficult, ugly, tearing sobs,
that surprise no one more than him whom they overtake. For an instant
Aspasia was terrified. But for that desperate clutch she would have
fled. The next moment, however, all the woman in her awoke.
"Oh, don’t cry!" she said, as if she were speaking to a child, and laid
her free hand upon his close-cropped hair.
And then—neither of them knew how it happened—her arm was round his
shoulder, and his head was lying upon her tender breast. The dry agony
that shook him passed; and tears that fell like balm rolled down his
cheeks.
Baby, carried quite out of herself in this astounding whirl of events,
began to weep, too, quite softly, to herself. And, as he lifted his
face to hers and drew her down to him, their lips met upon the bitter of
their tears, and yet in sweetness undreamed of. At the touch of that
child-mouth and at her voiceless surrender, Bethune knelt before her in
his heart and consecrated himself to her for ever. Closed henceforth
for him the magic casement on "perilous seas" of passion, "on faëry
lands forlorn." Gone those visions, exquisite and deadly! A faithful
loving hand, a child’s hand, had been held out to him in his moment of
utmost misery; it had lifted him from the deeps; it he would clasp and
go to meet life’s duty, content—aye, humbly grateful—that his winter
should have harboured a robin after all; ready to open his heart to its
song of spring.
* * * * *
Afterwards, he knew, he would blame himself for that moment of weakness
which had won him, unworthy, so true and unsuspecting a heart. But the
deed was irrevocable, and he would not have been human not to rejoice.
* * * * *
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