We physicians are, of course, accustomed in similar
circumstances, to find a strong distaste in the patient
suffering from shock to any effort of memory. Memory, indeed,
by one of those marvellous dispensations of nature, is reluctant
to bring back the events which have caused the mischief. But,
with the beautiful Lady G—— (it is always thus I must recall
her) there was something more than the mere recoil of
weakness....
On eût pu croire que cette âm ebrisée de passion, abreuvée de
douleur, s’était dit qu’elle n’en voulait plus; qu’elle n’en
pouvait plus. Co n’était pas, ici, les souvenirs, qui faisaient
défaut. Je l’ai trop observée pour m’y méprendre. En avait-elle
des souvenirs et d’assez poignants, mon Dieu! ... But with a
strength of will which surprised me in her state, she put these
memories from her and deliberately lived in the present. Elle
goutait son présent, elle savourait la paix voluptueuse de sa
convalescence....
Je n’ai qu’à fermer les yeux, pour la revoir, sur son
lit—longue, blanche et belle. Je revois ce jeune
teint—divinement jeune sous cette grande chevelure d’argent; cet
air de lys au soleil, à la fois languissant et mystérieusement
heureux. Ces yeux noyés dans une pensée profonde. Ces lévres
entr’ouvertes par un léger sourire. A qui rêvaitelle—à quoi?
Cette belle bouche muette n’en soufflait jamais mot....
Of the three who had loved her, for whom was that smile?
Certes, not for the poor Sir! And of the other two? (I must
here frankly set down the humiliating admission, to me, that
woman was, and remains Sphynx—yes, Sphynx, even to me, her
physician, who beheld her, watched, tended her, through all
those moments of suffering, weakness, _défaillance_ where the
soul reveals itself.) Which of the two, then, reigned in her
secret dream? The sardonic Major, who had tracked her till she
could escape him no longer, whose love was merciless. There are
women, and many, who would never know passion but for defeat.
The husband? The reincarnated ghost? Well reincarnated, that
one!—The most virile type that I ever met. Nature of fire, born
lover, under all his reticence of English gentleman and soldier.
I have seen that face of his, half bronze, half marble, grow
crimson and white within the minute, as I spoke to him of the
woman, the while there would not be a tremble in the hand that
held this pipe. I will confess he had all my sympathy; he was
worthy of her. But she—why, to this day I ask myself: does the
man who possesses her know the secret of her heart?
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