He would dearly have loved to know, true; but, above all, he would
dearly have loved to help.
"Eh, Dieu sait," he sighed, as the fly jingled and bumbled over the
grass-grown avenue, "Dieu sait ce qui va se passer là-bas, maintenant
que je n’y suis plus!"
He gave a lingering look at the twisted chimney-stacks against the pale
sky, before setting his face for Paris, Ville Lumière, once more.
* * * * *
"She must not be hurried!—Until she asks for me; then," had resolved
Harry English, "I will wait."
And at first, indeed, it seemed as if the waiting could not be hard.
For with the young year had come new hopes to the Old Ancient House.
And with Rosamond turning to life in her room upstairs under the gables,
he who loved her could well afford to sit with patience below.
Yet time went by, and the summons came not.
Upon that first blessed morning, indeed, when after all these long days
she had awakened at last, and looked upon the world with seeing eyes
once more, Rosamond had whispered to Aspasia:
"Harry—is he here?"
The girl’s heart had leaped with joy.
"Yes," came her eager answer. "Will you see him?"
Like a little Mercury, one foot poised, hand outstretched to grasp the
happy moment, Aspasia stood ready to take flight upon her errand of
comfort. But the pale woman in the bed shrank. The old shy withdrawal
from the thought of emotion—as once from sorrow, now from joy—seemed to
be upon her.
"Not yet," she faintly sighed.
And, day by day, the singular little scene was re-enacted. In defiance
of doctor’s orders, Baby—with the sense of that other’s hungry
disappointment heavy upon her heart—would put her query ever more
pleadingly:
"Will you not see him? Can you not see him? May it not be for to-day?"
But ever would come the same reply, while the lids sank over the timid
eyes, and colour mounted slowly in the transparent face:
"Not yet."
Then the woman would fall back into her secret dream, lying hours in
that quietude at which her physician marvelled, while he welcomed its
healing power. It was a pause in life. So the young mother may lie and
hold her infant in her languid arms and be happy because of its very
weakness and incompleteness; and deem it more safely her own that it has
yet no speech for her, no will to meet hers, even no power of love with
which to answer hers.
It is harder to be patient in happiness than in sorrow. These days of
waiting began to tell upon Harry English more than all the years had
done.
Yet it was idle to say: "She must not be hurried," since time marches
with us all, whether we will or no; and with time, the events which
change our destiny. The most guarded being cannot escape the influence
of those lives with which Fate has thrown his fortune, and Rosamond was
destined at last to be shaken out of her dreams by the combined energies
of other fortunes.
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