"Not here. There is no death in this house. Don’t you feel it, ma’am?
It’s not death that is here. Why, her that is gone, she passed from me
there, in that bed, as the night passes into day. That is not death.
Not an hour before the summons came for her she was wandering—as the
doctor called it. I knew better. She saw him and was speaking to him.
’Ah, Harry,’ she says, joyful, ’I knew you were not dead.’ And then she
turns to me. ’He is not dead, Mary,’ she says, ’it was all a mistake.’"
Rosamond listened, her pale lips apart, her gaze dark and wondering.
"Why, ma’am," went on old Mary. "Haven’t you felt it yourself, this
night; didn’t you feel his sweet company the minute you set foot in the
house? I think it was my lady’s great love that brought him back here.
And now that she is gone, he’s still here. And it’s strange, he’s here
more than she is. She does not come as he does."
Her eyes became fixed on far-off things. Still clasping Rosamond’s hand
she seemed to transmit a glow, a warmth that reached to the heart.
Rosamond’s sick and cowering soul felt at rest as upon a strength
greater than her own.
His company! Was that not what she had felt? Was it not that to which
she had awakened? Ay, the old woman was right: it was sweet!
"There is no death," asserted old Mary, once again, "no death unless we
make it. It’s our fault if our dead do not live for us; it’s our
earthly bodies that won’t acknowledge the spirit. It’s we who make our
dead dead, who bury them, who make corpses of them and coffins for them,
to hide them away in the cold earth."
Rosamond wrenched her hands from the wrinkled grasp. She sprang to her
feet, seized by a sudden anguish that was actual physical pain.
"Go, go!" she cried wildly. She was caught up as in a whirlwind of
unimaginable terror. What had she done? Had she laid Harry English in
the grave? Was he dead to her through her own deed, he that had lived on
for his mother? Had she in her cowardice hammered him into his coffin,
and would he always be a corpse to her because she had made him dead?
Through the inarticulate voices of her torment, she heard the door close
and felt she was alone. And then she found herself upon her knees
before the shrine, the photograph case still clenched between her
fingers, praying blindly, madly, inarticulately—to what? she knew not.
To the white Christ on the cross, who had risen from the dead? Or to
the strong soldier whose image she held, and for whom there could be no
rising again?
When the storm passed at length she was broken, chilled, and unconsoled.
Old Mary’s words came back to her: "She prayed there and she got peace."
Well, the mother may have found peace in prayer. But for the wife,
there was none! "He came back in peace"; he had not come back to her—to
Rosamond, his wife!
A wave of revolt broke over her; against the God who had invented death
for his creatures, or against stupid blind fate disposing of those human
lives that have no God.
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