They took their pessimism, as they did their beer, in great
undiscriminating gulps, which affected their healthy organisms no more
than the blowing of the wind. With it they drugged their bodies,
swigging away heartily at both narcotics till at last they dropped to
insensibility, only to crawl out from under the table the next morning,
their young eyes invincibly bright, their breaths sweet, their stomachs
indomitably craving good food, finding the honest winter sunshine
flooding in at the windows, in no way incompatible with the flat, stale
beer and stinking cigar-butts left from the night before. An adult might
have drunk of the bitter waters of disillusion with more caution, have
carried his load of pessimism with less outward unsteadiness, but later
on, what dead pussy-cat fur upon his tongue, what a sick loathing for
wholesome fare! But these gilded youth swilled down each his kegful of
Nietzsche and turned with equal zest to handfuls of gum-drops like "The
Cardinal's Snuff-box."
As for Neale, he joined in the discussions as briskly as any, but with
reservations. He never quoted or mentioned Emerson, although he thought
of him a great deal. He never discussed anything or any one he really
cared a snap about. In occasional moments of insight (which came to him
because he talked less babblingly than the others and listened more) he
suspected that all the other slashing young radicals and iconoclasts
might also be holding back secret articles of faith from defilement.
One element in his life that he never mentioned to the Gang, was the
amount of time he was spending with Miss Wentworth. He had called on her
one evening shortly after the Palisading trip, alleging as an excuse
that he owed her a dinner call for the picnic lunch she had provided. He
had called several times since then, with no excuse at all. He had been
one of her box-party at "Candida" and somewhat over-paid his debt by
taking her to "Out of the Wilderness," and Barnum and Bailey's circus.
He had dined several times at the Wentworth apartment, discussed the
Republican Party with her quiet, widowed, impressive father, and had
learned to leave him in peace with his Evening Post after dinner. Miss
Wentworth kept up on her college athletics, and Neale took her to the
Basket-ball games, the Dual Gym. Meet with Yale, the Hockey games, the
Indoor Track Meet at the 69th Regiment Armory. She had a great passion
for walking, so they walked in the afternoons along Riverside Drive, in
Central Park, along the driveway by Fort Washington Point. By the time
the ice had broken up in the spring, Neale had discovered two things:
first that Miss Wentworth was not like any other girl he knew, she
didn't flirt, wasn't piqued if he was silent, he felt no impulse to
bluff or play-act before her, she was more like another fellow than a
girl--only a very much more attractive fellow than he had ever met. The
secondary discovery, which alarmed as well as thrilled him, was that if
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