"Oh, damn it!" he cried impatiently, dismayed to feel that with the
memory of his mother, he was aware as though of a palpable presence in
the room there, of women ... of women as different from men, emotionally
exacting, wanting something different from men, with some fine-spun
impossible ideal of what could be had out of human nature, troubling,
hampering the real business of life ... and yet all the time an
inevitable part of things! For an instant he felt brutally angry with
them, with their superfine weakening notions, and had for the first time
the exasperated feeling that they were an element in life
which you could neither do anything with, nor do without. The
ewig-weibliche,--good heavens! All it did was to snarl things up! Neale
got up from the bed and went over to the wash-stand, amazed at himself,
his fit of fury passed, unable to conceive what had started him off on
such an explosion. What under the sun possessed him, veering around like
a crazy weather-cock from one high-strung mood to another, more shifts
of feeling in a day than he had ever used to know in a year! He would
put it all out of his mind, all! He simply would not allow himself to
think of it again, to think of all that, he would not!
He went hastily down the stairs and fell to talking business with
Grandfather, talking to very good purpose, too. To-day their projects
went far beyond the little tract of second-growth oak they had first
thought of. Grandfather, wily old spider, at the center of a wide-flung
web, knew many tips which he was more than willing to pass on to his
favorite, Neale,--Neale who had the other half of the combination and
could sell at top prices what Grandfather could buy at rock-bottom. He
was in fact delighted with Neale's ideas and the energy with which Neale
laid his plans. "Why, you're worth two of your father!" he cried
exultantly, as they sat again, the next morning on the porch and went
into details. "I never could see why Dan'l didn't get on better! He
never seemed to care enough about it, and by thunder, you got to care if
you're going to get anywhere." The old man paused, took breath, and
brought out, with an attempt to sound casual, "I've thought sometimes
'twas your mother made him that way. She's a nice girl, your mother is,
Neale, but I never thought she _pushed_ your father the way she ought
to."
He glanced at Neale a little apprehensively, but the young man said
nothing. He was following out a thought, not entirely new, a guess which
he had subconsciously made before, that there was a long hostility
between his mother and his grandfather. The idea stirred a great deal in
his own head, which he felt no desire to examine.
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