And then, very slowly, he had begun to make a guess that there was an
arrangement in what looked so wildly hit-or-miss; as on the day when
happening upon the little triumphal arch in Rheims he had at last got
under his skin the idea of the Roman Empire, far-reaching, permeating
with its law, customs, speech, the tiniest crevices of the provinces. To
think of Romans living and governing and doing business in a little,
one-horse, Gallic town like this! Maybe it hadn't been such a crazy
aspiration to want to be Emperor--sort of like being President of the
Standard Oil Company to-day. You knew in your heart that the job was too
big for any man, but it was warming to your imagination even to pretend
you were running a machine that covered the whole known world. And
probably all of them had an illogical hunch that _they_ would get away
with it--and, by Jupiter, a lot of them had, and died peacefully in
their beds. After all, so far as ordinary horse-sense went, wasn't
devoting yourself to gathering together a great deal more money than you
could possibly use, at least as odd a way of spending a human life as
trying to hang on to the tail of the Roman Empire? And yet there were
countless thousands of men all over Europe as well as in the United
States who were hoping with all their souls that Fate would allow them
to do just that. And a few did get away with it--just as some of the
Emperors had. But it killed a great many--the Manager of the Gates
Lumber Company, for instance. Every man knew that it might be the death
of him, just as in the first century an Emperor knew he'd be lucky if he
were killed quick. But nobody hung back for that in either century.
Nobody really believed it would get _him_! Why, a year ago, Neale
Crittenden himself had been tearing along towards it as hard as he could
pelt.
Well, good God, you had to do _some_thing with yourself. You couldn't
float along, your boneless tentacles rising and falling with the tides,
like that jelly-fish of a Livingstone!
What was there for a man to do with himself? At all times evidently,
some men had been satisfied in producing art of some kind or
another--that wasn't any good for Neale. He hadn't an ounce of artistic
feeling, wasn't even a craftsman, let alone an artist. And many men in
every epoch had cared about fighting. That was more his sort--if you
were sure you could find something worth fighting for! And many men had
wanted to run things--not only for the feeling of personal power, but to
straighten out the hopeless muddles humanity was always getting itself
into.... He had lost the frail thread of his thought in a maze of
speculations, comparisons, half-formulated ambitions.
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