Rulers of kings: A novelAtherton, Gertrude Franklin Horn
General
Rulers of kings: A novel
Atherton, Gertrude Franklin Horn
Statesmen -- Fiction
more European than American. Although she was now accepted as a matter
of course, for several years the haughtiest and most exclusive people
on earth had tolerated her with ill-concealed resentment, by no means
unexaggerated by jealousy; and Alexandra, feeling that the pride of her
country was involved, to say nothing of her own comfort, had succeeded
in obliterating all trace of the alien. Only an American can imagine
the force of the reaction. And this morning, returning after a long
absence to find her friend more than ever in need of the diversion she
knew so well how to provide, she was forced to pause suddenly and bite
her lip. But Ranata’s ancestors were slumbering, and the atmosphere of
freedom came subtly to her nostrils.
“If possible, my father is more of a machine than ever,” she remarked
dryly. “I sometimes think that his very remarks to me at dinner--I see
less and less of him anywhere else--are dictated by his ministers. I
don’t blame him, poor man, for being afraid to love anybody again.
If he wants to be a machine, I should be the last to deny him, and
I really believe that he now feels nothing, and is a mere automaton
from four in the morning until he goes to sleep peacefully at nine
in the evening. I wish I were a machine myself. It must be the only
refuge this side the grave. But the stupid physical fact is that my
nerve-cells are still stronger than my fibrous tissue, and I must wait
thirty years or so for Nature to do her work.”
“Your afflictions have been shocking, poor dear--”
“I am not thinking of my afflictions. No one experienced in sorrow
will ever whine. It is the future I am thinking of--to say nothing of
the present. I am twenty-eight. Except when you are here I am utterly
without companionship, unless, to be sure, when I am in the country on
a horse. Here in Vienna, as you know, I rarely leave the Hofburg--leave
these rooms only for the riding-school or some other part of the
palace; for my father--or his ministers--seems to dislike more and more
the attention I attract whenever I show myself abroad--”
She paused abruptly and gave a curious sidelong glance at her friend.
“You have been thinking of matrimony!” exclaimed Alexandra.
“Yes--twice during the past year. I have been almost tempted to
consider it--almost, but not quite. The change would be too temporary.
If there is one thing that must surpass the eternal boredom of
unmarried royal women, it is putting up with a wired automaton and
bearing his sickly children. And liberty! Now, at least, I can lock
these doors, and even my father would not force them, and my ladies are
only too glad to be relieved of my society. But perhaps I have spoken
too strongly. In solitude I have found much happiness. I can dream and
dream, and forget that not the least of my dreams can ever come true.”
She had spoken flippantly, quite brutally, but she finished with an
accent of profound sadness.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account