American fiction -- 20th century; Sea stories; Short stories, American
Sarah shivered. She knew now that in Peter's good opinion of her lay
much of what she cared for in this world. In the good opinion of some
man or other lay most of what the other girls in the store cared for.
Always with them was the undying note--to hold and keep men's good
opinion, to keep it at no matter what sacrifice of everything else.
"What they don't know will never hurt them. A man is no better off
because he knows things!" She had heard that so often; and no girl is
spending eight hours a day for two years with other girls without
soaking in something of what they believe--not and be human, that is.
But she had never met a man like Peter. He held her in such respect,
he held all girls in such respect, that it was solemn. Only the night
before she had thought one time he was going to kiss her, and she had
surged toward him, with her lips soft for him, but he had only said
"Good night" suddenly and had run off--almost--up the street.
But Peter was speaking.
"Men have to go out to fight for a living in places where the fighting,
Sarah, is sometimes pretty fierce. And sometimes that kind o' fighting
makes 'em rough, and maybe cruel in spots. But that don't mean they're
bad men. Men c'n be rough sometimes, but I never knew a man--that was
any good, Sarah--that wanted women to have any o' men's badness.
Aboard a vessel we just nacherally expect every man in her will 'tend
to his part o' the work, even if he loses his life sometimes 'tendin'
to it. That's a man's part, an' it's what he owes to the other men
aboard. An' every man has that, an' it's as much a part of him as the
beard on his face. And so when there's a woman somewhere a man's
countin' on, he expects just nacherally she'll hold out against all the
world for him. That's her part. And when to-night, Sarah, that
fat-faced, lyin' brute said you'd drunk wine with him, 'twas just as
much as if you'd said you liked him once--liked his kind."
Sarah sat down on the step. Pretty soon--she couldn't help it--Peter
heard her sobbing.
He lifted her up.
"Sarah, Sarah; what is it?"
She drew away from him; for, of course, when she told him, he, that was
so good himself, would never care for her again.
"It was true what he said, Peter! I did drink wine with him, and in
that same place!"
Peter stood very still. And then he moved out to the curbstone, and
with little tugs at his collar kept looking up at the sky. By and by
he came back to the doorway.
"I wish you hadn't, Sarah; I wish you hadn't," he said, but came no
nearer.
"Wish I hadn't told you?"
"No, no; I'm glad you told me. And I know what it meant for you to
tell me. I'd rather take a chance going over the side--redjacks,
oilskins, and all--in a high sea after a shipmate than have to tell a
girl something about myself that I know she don't want to hear.
Specially when I care for her--not that I'm thinkin' you care for me so
much, Sarah."
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