Gothic fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"I cannot tell what trouble you have on your mind, but I can answer for
it, if human help can lighten it, Mr. Shenstone will give you all the
help he can. And if it is but between you and heaven, he will show you
the way to get at peace. Oh, my dear young lady! you need not be afraid
to open your heart to one who knows so much about God's mercy and men's
sins. You need not be afraid but that he will be as tender as he is
wise; indeed, you need not fear him."
She spoke rapidly and earnestly; her whole manner of precision and
composure seemed to be broken down and melted before some recollection
that my trouble seemed to recall. I laid my burning hand in hers, and
said with a sigh:
"Oh, if I only dared!"
"But why should you fear?" she continued, earnestly. "Why should you
fear, when I tell you that he has only kindness and pity in his
heart--that he has looked with forbearance and compassion on blacker
sins than ever stained your young soul; and when I tell you--for I have
reason to know--that he can bring light out of darkness, and can show a
way of peace to even the most tortured and despairing. It may," she
continued, "be but a very little sin that is weighing on you, and
turning you out of the right way; but from little sins grow heavy
punishments, and better find now the best way of putting it out of your
heart, and putting something good in its stead. You have all life before
you," she said, with a weary sigh, "and repentance is easier and more
hopeful work, than it is to come back, when one has spent one's
inheritance of life in sin, having nothing to offer heaven but fruitless
tears."
Her voice trembled with emotion; she looked pityingly at me as,
struggling to keep back my tears, I hid my face in the pillow, and
caressing the hand that still lay in hers, she went on to persuade me to
the only remedy she knew for my unhappiness. I still felt shudderingly
afraid to make the dreadful effort, and faltered something about my fear
of his goodness and superiority, and the contempt he would feel for me
when he knew how weak and sinful I had been.
"Would it give you courage," she said, in a low tone, "to know how he
once received the repentance of a very miserable woman--a woman who had
not only sinned against heaven, but against him--who had done more than
any one else to blight his happiness and make his life desolate, but
who, having met the due reward of her deeds, came back to die in misery
where she had failed to live in innocence? Shall I tell you of this?"
I whispered "Yes," and she went on in a low voice:
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