Gothic fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"I am sorry that your own good sense did not teach you the impropriety
of such an interference as this, and that I am obliged to remind you of
our relative positions, before you can understand how much such a thing
as this offends me. The management of the household is my province, and
any interference or advice concerning it I reject decidedly. If Esther
is peevish and ill-tempered, I certainly hope Félicie will be strict
with her. I have no intention of humoring her caprices, or disarranging
the family to suit her whims. You may dismiss the subject from your mind
entirely."
I bowed and left the room, with what bitter and resentful feelings it is
easy to imagine. When Essie came crying to the door of my room, half an
hour after, I sent her away; I was busy, she must not come in, and
though her miserable face haunted me, I stubbornly put back the counsel
that it gave me. I had been told not to interfere, and I would obey. All
day I did not interfere--all day the evil spirit ruled, and I heard,
without a remonstrance, the storm from the nursery, which, however,
gradually subsided as the day advanced. I had enough employment,
meantime, to keep down conscience; there was a flounce of my white dress
to be repaired, and the blue bows to be made before evening. Mr.
Waschlager did not come; Mr. Olman, poor man, had been ill for a week,
and to-morrow was Miss Berteau's day, so there was nothing of duty to
fill up the hours that would have hung heavily if it had not been for
the anticipations of, and preparations for, the evening,
I turned the key of my door on Grace, and the key of my heart on poor
little Essie, and toward evening threw myself into a chair by the fire,
and read the latest number of "The Newcomes." And who ever read
Thackeray without feeling the greatest longing to see the world which he
decries? Who ever laid down a volume of his without a more eager thirst
for the pomps and vanities than they had ever felt before? Who wouldn't
have been Ethel, "with all swelldom at her feet," even if she did cheat
herself of her happiness, and stored up sorrow for the heavy years to
come? Who could have the heart to say that Pen, in his zenith, wasn't to
be envied? or that George Osborne wasn't a good fellow? I, for one,
never felt any less attracted toward them because Mr. Thackeray, after
spending on them the finest colors on his pallet, tells us they are not
to be approved after all, and that they are not in the right way, and
that they have any amount of discipline to go through before they are
perfected. I always felt inclined to "skip" the discipline; the natural
man was the genuine one--the improvement wasn't spicy. So, on this
occasion, I read on, fascinated, till twilight's gradual fingers stole
between me and the page, and I reluctantly gave it up, and dreamed on
about the story till the dinner bell rang.
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