Gothic fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
As I crept through the narrow space between the wardrobe and the door, I
grasped Kitty's hand with an involuntary shudder. "Don't go away," I
whispered.
"No, Miss. I'll stay just outside the door and watch, and you must come
the very minute I tap at it, for Mrs. Roberts will be back as soon as
ever she has given out the things for tea. I won't go away, don't be
afraid, Miss."
The twilight was too dim for me to distinguish anything as Kitty closed
the door softly behind me, and I groped my way into the room. "Victor!"
I said, in a whisper, as no sound met my ear.
A dark figure between me and the faint light of the window, started
forward as I spoke, and, in another moment, my hands were grasped in
hands as cold and trembling. Did it give me a shudder to remember the
work those hands had done in the grey shadowy twilight, one short week
before? I tried not to think of it. I tried to remember it was the man
who loved me--who had risked his life for my love. But crime and remorse
had strangely darkened and changed him. There was a wild sort of despair
in his very tenderness--a fierce recklessness when he spoke of the
future; I tried in vain to reassure myself and soothe him, but I quailed
before a nature, beside the strength of whose passion, all that I had
known or seen of despair and desperation faded into insignificance. A
weak man can sin weakly, and bewail it feebly and with tears: a strong
man, who is hurried into crime by the very intensity and strength, of
his nature, turns fiercely upon the remorse that besets him; the very
gall of bitterness is his repentance--blood and curses are the tears he
sheds.
Tenderness and confidence shrunk back affrighted from such contact; I
trembled in his grasp, and he caught a suspicion of my fear. I never
shall forget the agony of the gesture with which he released me, and
turning away, buried his face in his hands. I started forward, and
tried, in faltering accents, to assure him of--what? The words died on
my lips. At that moment there was a hurried tap at the door, and Kitty's
voice whispered:
"Quick!"
"There is your release!" he exclaimed, bitterly. "You have done your
duty; draw a long breath, and hurry back into the light and freedom of
the outer world. Quick! I must not keep you."
"You are wrong," I murmured, "I must go, but it is just as dark and
miserable outside to me, as it is here for you. Don't fancy, Victor,
that there is any pleasure for me now."
"You need not remind me of that!" he exclaimed, sinking down, and bowing
his face on the table before him. "You need not remind me of that! I
know I have dragged you down with me in my fall, and it is the cruellest
thought in all my cruel anguish; but you shall be freed--be sure you
shall be freed!"
"Why will you talk so strangely, Victor? What have I done to make you
doubt me now? I would die to serve you--I have no other thought than how
to save you from the danger that threatens"----
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account