“I tell you it is so,” she said angrily.
“What a ghastly shame!”
“It was her own doing; she said so, herself.”
“And her father—the padre! My God!”
Leila was suddenly smitten with a horrible doubt. She had thought it
would disgust him, cure him of any little tendency to romanticise that
child; and now she perceived that it was rousing in him, instead, a
dangerous compassion. She could have bitten her tongue out for having
spoken. When he got on the high horse of some championship, he was not
to be trusted, she had found that out; was even finding it out bitterly
in her own relations with him, constantly aware that half her hold on
him, at least, lay in his sense of chivalry, aware that he knew her
lurking dread of being flung on the beach, by age. Only ten minutes
ago he had uttered a tirade before the cage of a monkey which seemed
unhappy. And now she had roused that dangerous side of him in favour of
Noel. What an idiot she had been!
“Don't look like that, Jimmy. I'm sorry I told you.”
His hand did not answer her pressure in the least, but he muttered:
“Well, I do think that's the limit. What's to be done for her?”
Leila answered softly: “Nothing, I'm afraid. Do you love me?” And
she pressed his hand hard.
“Of course.”
But Leila thought: 'If I were that meercat he'd have taken more
notice of my paw!' Her heart began suddenly to ache, and she walked on
to the next cage with head up, and her mouth hard set.
Jimmy Fort walked away from Camelot Mansions that evening in extreme
discomfort of mind. Leila had been so queer that he had taken leave
immediately after supper. She had refused to talk about Noel; had even
seemed angry when he had tried to. How extraordinary some women were!
Did they think that a man could hear of a thing like that about such
a dainty young creature without being upset! It was the most perfectly
damnable news! What on earth would she do—poor little fairy princess!
Down had come her house of cards with a vengeance! The whole of her
life—the whole of her life! With her bringing-up and her father and
all—it seemed inconceivable that she could ever survive it. And Leila
had been almost callous about the monstrous business. Women were hard to
each other! Bad enough, these things, when it was a simple working girl,
but this dainty, sheltered, beautiful child! No, it was altogether
too strong—too painful! And following an impulse which he could not
resist, he made his way to the old Square. But having reached the house,
he nearly went away again. While he stood hesitating with his hand on
the bell, a girl and a soldier passed, appearing as if by magic out
of the moonlit November mist, blurred and solid shapes embraced, then
vanished into it again, leaving the sound of footsteps. Fort jerked the
bell. He was shown into what seemed, to one coming out of that mist, to
be a brilliant, crowded room, though in truth there were but two lamps
and five people in it. They were sitting round the fire, talking, and
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