Sandra Belloni (originally Emilia in England) — CompleteMeredith, George
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Sandra Belloni (originally Emilia in England) — Complete
Meredith, George
English fiction -- 19th century
Rising, the lady said: “I have spoken to you upon equal terms; and
remember, very few women would have done what I have done. You are cared
for by Merthyr Powys, and that's enough. It would do you no harm to fix
your eyes upon him. You won't get him; but it would do you no harm. He
has a heart, as they call it; whatever it is, it's as strong as a cable.
He is a knight of the antique. He is specially guarded, however. Well,
he insists that you are his friend; so you are mine, and that is why I
have come to you and spoken to you. You will be silent about it, I need
not say. No one but yourself is aware that Lieutenant Pole does me the
honour to liken me to the good old gentleman who accompanied Telemachus
in his voyages, and chooses me from among the handmaidens of earth. On
this head you will promise to be silent.”
Lady Charlotte held forth her hand. Emilia would not take it before she
had replied, “I knew this before you came,” and then she pressed the
extended fingers.
Lady Charlotte drew her close. “Has Wilfrid taken you into his
confidence so far?”
Emilia explained that she had heard it from his father.
The lady's face lit up as from a sting of anger. “Very well--very well,”
she said; and, presently, “You are right when you speak of the power of
lying in men. Observe--Wilfrid told me that not one living creature knew
there was question of an engagement between us. What would you do in my
case?”
Emilia replied, “Forgive him; and I should think no more of it.”
“Yes. It would be right; and, presuming him to have the vice, I could be
of immense service to him, if at least he does not lie habitually. But
this is a description of treachery, you know.”
“Oh!” cried Emilia, “what kind of treachery is that, if he only will
keep his heart open for me to give all mine to it!”
She stood clutching her hands in the half-sobbing ecstasy which
signalises a spiritual exaltation built on disquiet. She had shown small
emotion hitherto. The sight of it was like the sight of a mighty hostile
power to Lady Charlotte--a power that moved her--that challenged, and
irritated, and subdued her. For she saw there something that she had
not; and being of a nature leaning to great-mindedness, though not
of the first rank, she could not meanly mask her own deficiency by
despising it. To do this is the secret evil by which souls of men and
women stop their growth.
Lady Charlotte decided now to say good-bye. Her parting was
friendly--the form of it consisting of a nod, an extension of the hand,
and a kind word or two.
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