Sandra Belloni (originally Emilia in England) — CompleteMeredith, George
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Sandra Belloni (originally Emilia in England) — Complete
Meredith, George
English fiction -- 19th century
“Bella's right,” he said, reverting to the green page in his hand; “we
can't involve others in our scrape, whatever it may be.”
He ceased on the spot to be at war with himself, as he had been for many
a day; by which he was taught to imagine that he had achieved a mental
indifference to misfortune. This lightened his spirit considerably. “So
there's an end of that,” he emphasized, as the resolve took form to
tell Lady Charlotte flatly that his father was ruined, and that the son,
therefore, renounced his particular hope and aspiration.
“She will say, in the most matter-of-fact way in the world, 'Oh,
very well, that quite alters the case,'” said Wilfrid aloud, with the
smallest infusion of bitterness. Then he murmured, “Poor old governor!”
and wondered whether Emilia would come to this place according to his
desire. Love, that had lain crushed in him for the few recent days,
sprang up and gave him the thought, “She may be here now;” but, his eyes
not being satiated instantly with a sight of her, the possibility of
such happiness faded out.
“Blessed little woman!” he cried openly, ashamed to translate in
tenderer terms the soft fresh blossom of love that his fancy conjured
forth at the recollection of her. He pictured to himself hopefully,
moreover, that she would be shy when they met. A contradictory vision of
her eyes lifted hungry for his first words, or the pressure of his
arm displeased him slightly. It occurred to him that they would be
characterized as a singular couple. To combat this he drew around him
all the mysteries of sentiment that had issued from her voice and her
eyes. She had made Earth lovely to him and heaven human. She--what
a grief for ever that her origin should be what it was! For this
reason:--lovers must live like ordinary people outwardly; and say, ye
Fates, how had she been educated to direct a gentlemen's household?
“I can't exist on potatoes,” he pronounced humorously.
But when his thoughts began to dwell with fitting seriousness on the
woman-of-the-world tone to be expected from Lady Charlotte, he folded
the mental image of Emilia closely to his breast, and framed a misty
idea of a little lighted cottage wherein she sat singing to
herself while he was campaigning. “Two or three fellows--Lumley and
Fredericks--shall see her,” he thought. The rest of his brother officers
were not even to know that he was married.
His yacht was lying in a strip of moonlight near Sir Twickenham's
companion yawl. He gave one glance at it as at a history finished, and
sent up his name to Lady Charlotte.
“Ah! you haven't brought the good old dame with you?” she said, rising
to meet him. “I thought it better not to see her to-night.”
He acquiesced, mentioning the lateness of the hour, and adding, “You are
alone?”
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