Men -- Russia -- Fiction; Russia -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
“For a tree there is always hope. Even when felled it can put forth
fresh shoots, and regain new verdure and new life. But man dies, and
vanishes for ever. I lie down never to rise again. If I knew for
certain that after milliards of years I should come to life again,
patient and uncomplaining I would wait through all those centuries in
outer darkness.”
Once more he read from the book:
“What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the
sun?
“One generation passeth away and another generation cometh, but the
earth abideth for ever.
“The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down and hasteth to his place
where he arose.
“The wind goeth toward the south and turneth about unto the north: it
whirleth about continually; and the wind returneth again according to
his circuits.
“The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; there is nothing
new under the sun.
“There is no remembrance of former things; neither shall there be any
remembrance of things that are to come with those that shall come
after.
“I, the Preacher, was King over Israel in Jerusalem.”
“I, the Preacher, was King!” He shouted out these last words, as in
vehement anger and despair, and then looked round in alarm, fearing
lest some one should have heard him. Then he took a sheet of paper and
began to write.
“I here begin this document which will end with my decease.”
“Bah! how absurd it sounds!” he exclaimed as he pushed the paper from
him with such violence that it fell to the floor.
“But that miserable little fellow, Soloveitchik, didn’t think it absurd
that he could not understand the meaning of life!”
Yourii failed to perceive that he was taking as his model a man whom he
had described as a miserable little fellow.
“Anyhow, sooner or later, my end will be like that. There is no other
way out. Why is there not? Because…”
Yourii paused. He believed that he had got an exact reply to this
question, yet the words he wanted could not be found. His brain was
over-wrought, and his thoughts confused.
“It’s rubbish, all rubbish!” he exclaimed bitterly.
The lamp burned low, and its faint light illumined Yourii’s bowed head,
as he leant across the table.
“Why didn’t I die when I was a boy and had inflammation of the lungs? I
should now be happy, and at rest.”
He shivered at the thought.
“In that case I should not have seen or known all that now I know. That
would have been just as dreadful.”
Yourii tossed back his head, and rose.
“It’s enough to drive one mad!”
He went to the window and tried to open it, but the shutters were
firmly fastened from the outside. By using a pencil, Yourii was able at
last to unhook them, and with a creaking sound they swung back,
admitting the cool, pure night air, Yourii looked up at the heavens and
saw the roseate light of the dawn.
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