Men -- Russia -- Fiction; Russia -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
“You could not have thought of anything sillier!” cried Sanine,
breathless.
By a strange coincidence it so happened that Lida had reached the very
spot adjoining Sarudine’s garden where first she had surrendered to
him, a place, screened by dark trees from the light of the moon. Sanine
had seen her in the distance, and had guessed her intention. At first
he was for letting her have her way, but her wild, convulsive movements
aroused his pity, and vaulting the garden-seats and the bushes he
hastened to her rescue.
Her brother’s voice had an alarming effect upon Lida. Her nerves,
wrought to the utmost pitch by her inward conflict, suddenly gave way.
She became giddy; everything swam before her eyes, and she no longer
knew if she were in the water or on the river-bank. Sanine had just
time to seize her firmly and drag her backwards, secretly pleased at
his own strength and adroitness.
“There!” he said.
He placed her in a sitting posture against the hedge, and then looked
about him.
“What shall I do with her?” he thought. Lida in that moment recovered
consciousness, as pale and confused, she began to weep piteously. “My
God! My God!” she sobbed, like a child.
“Silly thing!” said Sanine, chiding her good-humouredly.
Lida did not hear him, but, as he moved, she clutched at his arm,
sobbing more violently.
“Ah! what am I doing?” she thought fearfully. “I ought not to weep; I
must try and laugh it off, or else he’ll guess what is wrong.”
“Well, why are you so upset?” asked Sanine, as he patted her shoulder
tenderly.
Lida looked up at him under her hat, timidly as a child, and stopped
crying.
“I know all about it,” said Sanine; “the whole story. I’ve done so for
ever so long.”
Though Lida was aware that several persons suspected the nature of her
relations with Sarudine, yet when Sanine said this, it was as if he had
struck her in the face. Her supple form recoiled in horror; she gazed
at him dry-eyed, like some wild animal at bay.
“What’s the matter, now? You behave as if I had trodden on your foot,”
laughed Sanine. Taking hold of her round, soft shoulders, which
quivered at his touch, he tenderly drew her back to her former place by
the hedge, and she obediently submitted.
“Come now, what is it that distresses you so?” he said. “Is it because
I know all? Or do you think your misconduct with Sarudine so dreadful
that you are afraid to acknowledge it? I really don’t understand you.
But, if Sarudine won’t marry you, well—that is a thing to be thankful
for. You know now, and you must have known before, what a base, common
fellow he really is, in spite of his good looks and his fitness for
amours. All that he has is beauty, and you have now had your fill of
that.”
“He of mine, not I of his!” she faltered. “Ah! well yes, perhaps I had!
Oh! my God, what shall I do?”
“And now you are pregnant….”
Lida shut her eyes and bowed her head.
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