India -- Description and travel; Missionaries -- India -- Biography; Missions -- India; Swartz, Christian Frederick, 1726-1798
“When I spoke to him on the subject and expressed a hope that God might
yet restore him to health, he said, ‘But I should not be able to preach
on account of my teeth.’ I replied, ‘If you only sit here as you do
at present and aid us with your counsel, all things would go on quite
differently from what they would if you were to leave us.’ But when I
next saw him, he said as soon as I entered, ‘I think the Lord will at
last take me to himself.’ I spoke to him a great deal on the subject,
but he remained silent, settled some pecuniary matters with me, and
gave me some money for Palamcotta. All this troubled me much. I prayed
and wept, could get no sleep for several nights, and lost my appetite
and strength, for various thoughts how things would go on after his
departure made me very wakeful. The physicians say there is no danger
as yet, but it now appears to me that our dear father will soon leave
us. O, if God would graciously strengthen him and spare him to us yet a
little while! If he depart to his rest what shall we both do?”
He was not to come back, already voices were calling from the other
side of the river. One thought only filled the sphere of his dying
moments, to be with Christ, which is far better. He wakes up from a
brief slumber with these words on his lips:
“My whole meditation is the death of Jesus, that I may be like Him. The
whole world is a mask. I wish to be where all is real.”
The English physician is leaning over him and catches his whisper,
“Doctor, in heaven there will be no more pain.” In a quiet tone he
replies, “Very true, but we must keep you here as long as we can.”
There is a pause, and then the earnest voice speaks again, “O, dear
doctor, let us take care that we may not be missing there!”
And now they gather round once more, and at his request they sing, with
such voice as they could command amid their sobs, his favourite hymn:
“Christus der ist mein Leben.”
With clasped hands they hear him commending his soul to God. “O, Lord,
hitherto Thou hast preserved me, hitherto Thou hast brought me, and
hast bestowed innumerable benefits upon me. Do what is pleasing in Thy
sight. I deliver my spirit into Thy hands, cleanse, and adorn it with
the righteousness of my Redeemer, and receive me into the arms of Thy
love and mercy!” A little group of native servants softly sing a German
hymn, one of Paul Gerhardt’s, the words of which he had taught them in
that language:
“O Haupt voll Blut und Wunden.”
O Wounded Head! Must Thou
Endure such shame and scorn!
The blood is trickling from Thy brow,
Pierced by the crown of thorns.
Thou who was crowned on high
With light and majesty,
In deep dishonour here must die,
Yet here I welcome Thee!
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