"Yer can't see fer face powder in the air," commented Annie, after
taking in the tea. John was a guest. He enjoyed hearing them lie so
magnificently to each other about the salaries they earned and the
promises made by managers. Yet they were good-hearted backbiters,
loving the venom for the chameleonic skill with which their tongues
struck the victims, intending no permanent harm to any one. They all
showed the worst side to the world and kept their private griefs
smothered in the dreary back rooms of dingy lodging houses. For all
their cheapness, Wellington and de Courtrai had hearts of gold. They
had nursed him through a bad attack of influenza, with unwearying
devotion, and no woman's hand could have ministered more skilfully
and patiently. Their artificiality was on the surface, their
feminine air companioned a feminine tenderness to each other--and on
this occasion, to John. Even Captain Fisher, when they cooked his
breakfast, on the sudden collapse of Mrs. Perdie and Annie with
influenza, declared they were born batmen.
"If they'd take a cold bath every morning and crop their hair, they
might pass as men," he growled. They would have won him completely
by their attentions during those influenza days had they not called
him "dear," in conversation on the third morning, whereupon Captain
Fisher spilt his coffee in an apoplectic rage.
III
It was during those weeks of July that Lindon arrived at a condition
which to John seemed hysterical. Ever since he had taken him to
Tilly's studio he had haunted the place like a silent ghost; that he
was madly in love with her he made no attempt to hide, and she, no
less than he, found the day dull when he was absent. He vowed that
Tilly was necessary to his music; he could not work without her,
there was no quality in his playing unless he played to her. One
night, after John had dined at his flat, Lindon walked up and down
the room, pouring out his agony of mind. His people had refused to
allow him to marry yet. "I'm tied up with an allowance,
Scissors--and I can't go on--we can't go on--it's hell!"
"We?--is Tilly unwilling to wait?"
"Yes, to wait--like me--why should we lead this miserable divided
life, when we belong to each other, when there's no existence apart?
I tell you it's immoral! Why shouldn't I marry--in the vigour of
youth, with a girl in a million. It's natural, it's right--and we're
told to wait--for what? Till we're wiser, if you please. Wiser!--oh
my God! Madness, that's how it'll end!"
Suddenly he turned upon his heel and looked at John, who sat quietly
in a chair.
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