"I'm afraid you'll find it very quiet here, my boy. You see, we've
not marked the tennis lawn this summer--Teddie always did that, and
there's no young people call now, they're all away. So you'll have
to amuse yourself."
He went indoors, sadly, thought John. Mrs. Marsh watched him go.
"Poor father," she said at last. "It has hurt him terribly."
John turned to her.
"And you?" he asked quietly.
She smiled at him.
"Perhaps I am less rebellious, John--I don't know. But I feel,
always I have felt, he has not gone, Teddie's here all the time."
"Here?"
"Yes--in this garden. Sometimes I sit here in the afternoon with my
sewing and listen to the wind in these trees. Sometimes there's not
a murmur of sound, and yet I feel that Teddie's here, just behind my
chair, or pulling the lawn roller down there, or lying in the sun
with a cushion under his head, 'basking' as he called it. I'm not
what you call psychic, John,--I've never given any thought to these
things, but I know he is not dead, that he moves with us here,
perhaps hears all we say. You know how he loved to talk. This is
foolish, perhaps,--but oh John, I am so sure I am right!"
He said nothing, but sat beside her. It was beautiful in this old
vicarage garden. Generations of vicars had tended it, and June came
year by year, with its profusion of roses, its climbing honeysuckle
and night-scented verbena. Was it too much to believe that any one
who had loved this spot, whose boyhood had passed in its peace, whose
love still lingered here, should come back, unseen? This was a
thought of faith, of love that would not countenance surrender; was
it a thought any the less reasonable because it sprang from abiding
love? He was a child in such experience, it was not for him to
judge; happy for her if Faith's bright star shone in the darkness of
these days.
He did not speak, he could not; any words of his would have seemed
desecration. He just sat there by her side, in the flower-scented
glow of the garden, while the sun dropped to the horizon and the
shadow of the elms lengthened along the lawn. The birds were now
twittering before sleep overtook them; the rookery over by the hall
grew noisy as the sky changed from rose-red to translucent green,
with an adventurous star here and there in the silver grey of the
east. The dinner bell tolled at the Hall. Mrs. Marsh broke the
silence.
"There, it is time we dressed. I have given you Teddie's room, I
thought you would like it," she said.
Under the pergola they paused and looked back over the gardens
towards the yew hedge, behind which the fading light of the horizon
flamed in the heart of the sunset. Softly she repeated,
"_Whose dwelling is the light of setting suns
And the round ocean and the living air._"
"Oh, John, I know I am right--the living air! I can't think of
Teddie as dead, he loved life too much for that; he was too joyous to
end in mere nothingness."
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