Secret BreadJesse, F. Tennyson (Fryniwyd Tennyson)
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Secret Bread
Jesse, F. Tennyson (Fryniwyd Tennyson)
Cornwall (England : County) -- Fiction
"Aw, what do 'ee think I ded it for?" he asked; "for love of Phoebe?
Her!... I could have got as good at any brothel to Penzance.... It
wasn't for love I ded it; it was for hate. Hate of 'ee, Ishmael! To get
my revenge, and for you not to knaw till it was too late, much too late,
to cast her off or the child. I wanted to wait till the boy should be
the warld to 'ee ... till he had grown as your own soul, and you saw his
son ready to come after him and thought it was your own flesh and blood
you was leaving behind you, and you too old to leave any other....
Cloom's been yours all your life, but when you and I are both on us
dead and rotting, it'll be I and not you who's living on at Cloom. So
'tes mine, after all, not yours...."
A moment later and the triumphant voice went on again.
"There's another letter," it said, "from your old Parson. I wrote to he
after I'd met Nicky--my son--casual-like once in Canada. That's what he
answered."
Again Ishmael picked up the letter, almost mechanically, and read:
"I have received your letter dated July, 1891. I cannot find words to
write to you as I would wish. If what you tell me is true--and I do not
think you could have invented the letters of which you send me
copies--it would matter very little if I found the pen of men and of
angels to tell you what I thought. I can only tell you that even if the
wish is wicked I hope with all my heart, and pray it too, that you may
never be allowed to come home to tell your brother what it is in your
heart to tell him. That the boy may never in his turn have a son to
gratify you with the sight of your grandchild at Cloom. That this weapon
you have forged against your brother may be under Providence to your own
undoing. And since the ways of God are mysterious--though I am tempted
to say not as past finding out as the ways of man--even if you carry out
your threat it may be that Ishmael will be given strength to withstand
the horror of what you tell him, and that the Lord has a comfort for him
in ways you could not understand, so that you will be robbed of all but
an empty victory...."
As Ishmael slowly and with meticulous care put the letters safely on to
the bed a step was heard coming along the passage, the step of Nicky,
the only step in that house which was both that of a man and vigorous.
Archelaus turned his head a little on the pillow, and Ishmael, for the
first time showing any emotion, leant towards him. "If you say a word to
him--" he began. The steps paused at the door and then went on again.
Ishmael stayed bent forward, eyes sidelong. Archelaus began to speak, as
though his mind had drifted backwards from the acuteness of the present.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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