CHAPTER XXXII. THE END OF CLAUDIA'S PRIDE. Is she saved by pangs that pained her? Is there comfort in all it cost her? Before the world had gained her, Before the Lord had lost her, Or her soul had quite disdained her? For her soul--(and this is the worst To bear, as we well know)-- Has been watching her from the first As closely as God could do, And herself her life has curst! Talk of the flames of hell, We build, ourselves, I conceive, The fire the fiend lights.--Well! Believe or disbelieve, We know more than we tell. --_Owen Meredith._ After a sleepless night, whose lonely anguish would have driven almost any woman who was compelled to endure it mad, Claudia arose and rung her bell. No one answered it. Too impatient to wait for the tardy attendance of her servants, Claudia thrust her feet into slippers, drew on her dressing-gown, and went and opened the window-shutters to let in the morning light. Then she rang again. Still no one obeyed the summons. She was not alarmed. Even with the knowledge of what had gone before, she felt no uneasiness. She went to the dressing glass and loosened her hair, and let it fall all over her shoulders to relieve her burning head. And then she bathed her face in cold water. She was impatient to make her toilet and leave the castle. She knew that all was over with her worldly grandeur; that all her splendid dreams had vanished forever; that obscurity, perhaps deepened by degradation, was all that awaited her in the future. Wounded, bruised, and bleeding as her heart was, she felt glad to go; glad to leave the abode of splendid discord, misery, and crime, for any quiet dwelling-place. For she was utterly worn out in body, mind, and spirit. She no longer desired wealth, rank, admiration, or even love; she only longed for peace; prayed for peace. She knew a turbulent future threatened her; but she feebly resolved to evade it. She knew that Lord Vincent would sue for a divorce from her; would drag her name before the world and make it a by-word of scorn in those very circles of fashion over which she had once hoped to reign; she would not oppose him, she thought; she had no energy left to meet the overwhelming mass of testimony with which he had prepared to crush her. If her father should come over and defend her cause--well and good. She would let him do it; but as for her, she would go away, and seek peace. You see, Claudia was in a very different mood of mind from that of the night previous, which had inspired her with such royal dignity and heroic courage to withstand and awe her accusers. There had come the natural reaction from high excitement, and feats which had appeared easy, in the hour of her exalted indignation, seemed now impossible. She could now no more go to the American minister, and tell him her story, and claim his assistance, than she could have run into a burning fire. But, thank Heaven, she could go from the castle.