Self-Raised; Or, From the DepthsSouthworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
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Self-Raised; Or, From the Depths
Southworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
Fiction
Strange! but on this night her thoughts, and even her sympathies,
were with Lord Vincent in his prison cell. Why should she think of
him? Why should she pity him? She had never loved him, never even
fancied that she loved him, even in the delusive days of courtship;
or in the early days of marriage; and she had despised and shunned
him in the miserable days of their estranged life at Castle Cragg.
Why, then, as she lay there in the darkness, silence, and solitude
of her own chamber, should her imagination hover over him? Why did
she contemplate him in sorrow and in compassion?
Because in that dreary cell she saw the twofold man--the man that he
ought to have been, and the man that he was; because she was his
wife, and though she had never loved him, yet with better treatment
she might have been won to do so; and finally, because she was a
woman, and therefore full of sympathy with every sort of suffering.
She knew that the dying confession of Frisbie would seal Lord
Vincent's fate. And she contemplated that fate as she had never done
before.
Penal servitude.
Why it had seemed a mere, empty phrase until now. Now it was an
appalling reality brimful of horror, even for the coarsest, dullest,
and hardest criminal; but of how much more for him.
Lord Vincent in the prison garb, working in chains; inquired after
by curious sight-seers; and pointed out to strangers as the felon-
viscount.
She meditated on the effect all this would have on him, in the
unspeakable misery it would inflict upon his vain, insolent, self-
indulgent organization; and she marveled how he would ever endure
it.
And she thought of the dishonor this would reflect upon herself as
his wife. And she shrunk shudderingly away from the burning shame of
living on, the wife of a felon.
In the deep compassion she could not but feel for him, and in the
intense mortification she anticipated for herself, she earnestly
wished that in some manner he might escape the degrading penalty of
his crimes.
In these harassing thoughts and distressing feelings Claudia lay
tossing upon her restless bed until long after midnight, when at
length she dropped into a deep and dreamless sleep.
Now the circumstance that I am about to relate will be interpreted
in a different manner by different people. Rationalists who pin
their faith on Sir Walter Scott and his "Demonology" will say it was
only an optical illusion; the incredulous, who believe in nothing,
will declare it was but a dream; while Spiritualists, who follow Mr.
Robert Dale Owen in his "Footprints on the Boundaries of Another
World," will be ready to declare that it was the apparition of a
spirit; I commit myself to no opinion on the subject.
But when Claudia had slept soundly for three hours she was aroused
by hearing her name called; she awoke with a violent start; she sat
upright in bed, and stared right before her with fixed eyes, pallid
face, and immovable form, as though she were suddenly petrified.
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