Sevenoaks: A Story of TodayHolland, J. G. (Josiah Gilbert)
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Sevenoaks: A Story of Today
Holland, J. G. (Josiah Gilbert)
Didactic fiction; Political fiction; Social problems -- Fiction
The former had always delighted to hear Jim talk, and never lost an
opportunity to set him going; but he did not know that Jim's exposition
of the parable had a personal motive. Mr. Benedict knew that it had, and
was very serious over it. His nature was weak in many respects. His will
was weak; he had no combativeness; he had a wish to lean. He had been
baffled and buffeted in the world. He had gone down into the darkness,
praying all the way; and now that he had come out of it, and had so
little society; now that his young life was all behind him, and so few
earthly hopes beckoned him on, he turned with a heart morbidly religious
to what seemed to him the only source of comfort open to him. Jim had
watched him with pain. He had seen him, from day to day, spending his
hours alone, and felt that prayer formed almost the staple of his life.
He had seen him willing to work, but knew that his heart was not in it.
He was not willing to go back into the world, and assert his place among
men. The poverty, disease, and disgrace of his former life dwelt in his
memory, and he shrank from the conflicts and competitions which would be
necessary to enable him to work out better results for himself.
Jim thoroughly believed that Benedict was religiously diseased, and that
he never could become a man again until he had ceased to live so
exclusively in the spiritual world. He contrived all possible ways to
keep him employed. He put responsibility upon him. He stimulated him
with considerations of the welfare of Harry. He disturbed him in his
retirement. He contrived fatigues that would induce sound sleep. To use
his own language, he had tried to cure him of "loppin'," but with very
unsatisfactory results.
Benedict comprehended Jim's lesson, and it made an impression upon him;
but to break himself of his habit of thought and life was as difficult
as the breaking of morbid habits always is. He knew that he was a weak
man, and saw that he had never fully developed that which was manliest
within him. He saw plainly, too, that his prayers would not develop it,
and that nothing but a faithful, bold, manly use of his powers could
accomplish the result. He knew that he had a better brain, and a brain
better furnished, than that of Robert Belcher, yet he had known to his
sorrow, and well-nigh to his destruction, that Robert Belcher could wind
him around his finger. Prayer had never saved him from this, and nothing
could save him but a development of his own manhood. Was he too old for
hope? Could he break away from the delights of his weakness, and grow
into something stronger and better? Could he so change the attitude of
his soul that it should cease to be exigent and receptive, and become a
positive, self-poised, and active force? He sighed when these questions
came to him, but he felt that Jim had helped him in many practical ways,
and could help him still further.
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