French fiction -- 19th century; Sand, George, 1804-1876
"We shall not meet again, Laurent, I am sure. Each soul goes toward its
centre of attraction. Repose summons me, while you will always and
everywhere be attracted by the tempest."
"That is to say that _you_ have not earned hell!"
"Nor have you earned it. You will be in another heaven, that is all!"
"What is there left for me in this world, if you leave me?"
"Glory, when you no longer seek love."
Laurent became pensive. Several times he repeated mechanically:
"Glory!"--then he knelt in front of the hearth, poking the fire as he
was accustomed to do when he wished to be alone with himself. Thérèse
went out to countermand the orders for her journey. She was well aware
that Laurent would have followed her.
When she returned, she found him very calm and cheerful.
"This world is only a dull comedy," he said; "but why seek to rise above
it, since we do not know what there may be higher up, or even if there
is anything at all? Glory, at which you laugh in your sleeve, I know
very well----"
"I do not laugh at other people's glory."
"What other people?"
"Those who believe in it and love it."
"God knows whether I believe in it, Thérèse, or whether I snap my
fingers at it as a mere farce! But one can love a thing of which he
knows the trifling value. You love a balky horse that breaks your neck,
the tobacco that poisons you, a wretched play that makes you laugh, and
glory, which is only a masquerade! Glory! what is glory to a living
artist? Newspaper articles that tear you to pieces and make people talk
about you, and laudatory articles that no one reads, for the public is
amused only by bitter criticisms, and when its idol is praised to the
skies it ceases to care for him at all. And then the groups that gather
about a painted canvas, and the monumental orders which fill you with
delight and ambition, and leave you half-dead with fatigue, with your
ideal unrealized. And then--the Institute--a collection of men who
detest you, and who themselves----"
Here Laurent indulged in the most intensely bitter sarcasms, and
concluded his dithyramb by saying:
"No matter! such is the glory of this world! We spit upon it, but we
cannot do without it, since there is nothing better!"
Their conversation was prolonged until evening, satirical,
philosophical, and becoming gradually altogether impersonal. To look at
them and listen to them, one would have said that they were two friends,
naturally peaceable, who had never quarrelled. This strange situation
had occurred several times in the midst of their fiercest storms: when
their hearts were silent, their minds still understood each other and
agreed.
Laurent was hungry, and asked Thérèse to give him some dinner.
"What about the coach?" she said. "It is almost time for it to start."
"But you are not going?"
"I shall go if you stay."
"Very well; then I will go, Thérèse. Adieu!"
He left the house abruptly, and returned an hour later.
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