Early next morning, having bound Mr. Benny to secrecy, she told him the
whole story. At first his face merely expressed horror; but by and by his
forehead lost its puckers. When she had done, his first comment took her
fairly aback.
"Ay," said he, "I'd half guessed it a'ready. The poor creature's
afflicted. It don't stand in nature for a man to deal around cruelty as
he's been doing unless his brain is touched."
"Afflicted is he?" Hester answered indignantly. "I'm afraid I keep all my
pity for those he afflicts."
"Then you do wrong," replied Mr. Benny, with much gravity. "That man
wants help if ever a man did."
"He will get none from me, then," she said, and flushed, remembering the
proposal in her pocket. "I won't endure the sight of him, after
yesterday's work. I have written a letter resigning my teachership."
"That isn't like you, somehow." Mr. Benny stood musing.
"Of course," she went on hastily, "I don't give my real reasons.
The letter is addressed to you as Clerk, and you will have to read it to
the Board. I am ready to fill the post until another teacher can be
found."
"It seemed to me, some while ago, that Mr. Samuel had a fancy for you.
Maybe I'm wrong, my dear; but you won't mind my speaking frankly.
And if I'm right, and he has begun pestering you, I can't blame you for
resigning. The man isn't safe."
His look carried interrogation at once shy and fatherly. She forced
herself to meet his eyes and nod the answer which her cheeks already
published.
"It is hateful," she murmured. "Yes, he asked me to marry him."
"I _told_ you he was afflicted," said Mr. Benny, still with simple
seriousness; then, catching a sudden twinkle in her eyes, "Eh? What did I
say? My dear, I didn't mean it that way!"
Mr. Benny had judged at once more charitably and more correctly than
Hester. Had she looked up yesterday when she passed Mr. Sam at the foot
of the stairs, she might have guessed the truth from his face.
The man was afflicted, and knew it; had suddenly discovered it, and was
afraid of himself--for the moment, abjectly afraid. All his life he had
been nursing a devil, feeding it on religion, clothing it in
self-righteousness, so carefully touching up its toilet that it passed for
saint rather than devil--especially in his own eyes, trained as they were
in self-deception. For every action, mean or illiberal or tricky or
downright cruel, he had a justificatory text; for his few defeats a
constant salve in the thought that his vanquishers were carnal men, sons
of Belial, and would find, themselves in hell some day. He was Dives or
Lazarus as occasion served. If a plan miscarried, the Lord was chastening
him; if, as oftener happened, it went prosperously, the Lord was looking
after His own; but always the plan itself, being _his_ plan, was certainly
righteous, because he was a righteous man. A good tree could not bring
forth evil fruit.
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