"I thank you. There is an old saying that he who conquers himself
performs a greater feat than he who takes a city. Some of us, Miss
Marvin, may hereafter associate the lesson with this our opening day."
He seemed to await some reply to this; but Hester could not speak, even to
thank him. Her spirit recoiled from him; she could not reconcile egoism
so inordinate with such cleverness in turning it to account. She watched
him with a certain fascination, as one watches some trained monster in a
show displaying its deformity for public applause. He shook hands with
her and made his exit, not without dignity, leaning on Mrs. Purchase's arm
and turning at the playground gate to wave farewell.
It is doubtful if the children understood his speech. But they were awed.
At the word of command they trooped into school, settled themselves at
their desks, and took up their interrupted lessons with a docility at
which Hester wondered, since for the moment she herself had lost all power
to interest or amuse them.
For her that was a dreadful hour. A couple of humble-bees zoomed against
the window pane, and the sound, with the ticking of the schoolroom clock,
took possession of her brain. Z-zoom! Tick-tack, tick-tack!
Would lesson-time never come to an end? She went about automatically
correcting sums, copies, exercises, because the sight of the pencilled
words or figures steadied her faculties, whereas she felt that if she
called the children up in class her wits would wander and all answers come
alike to her, right or wrong. Her will, too, had fallen into a strange
drowsiness. She wanted the window open, to get rid of the humble-bees;
a word to one of the elder boys and it would be done. Yet the minutes
passed and the word remained unspoken. So a sick man will lie and debate
with himself so small a thing as the lifting of a hand.
At length the clock hands pointed to five minutes to noon. She ordered
books to be shut and slates to be put away; and going to the harmonium,
gave out the hymn, "Lord, dismiss us with Thy blessing." The Managers had
agreed upon this hymn; the Nonconformist majority insisting, however, that
the concluding 'Amen' should be omitted. Omitted accordingly it was on
the slips of paper printed for school use.
"Lord, dismiss us with Thy blessing,
Thanks for mercies past receive;
Pardon all their faults confessing;
Time that's lost may all retrieve;
May Thy children
Ne'er again Thy Spirit grieve."
The children, released from the dull strain of watching the clock, sang
with spirit. Hester played on, inattentive to the words. At the end,
without considering what she did, she pressed down the chords of the
'Amen,' and the singers joined in, all unaware of transgressing.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account