Russian fiction -- Translations into English; Short stories, Russian -- Translations into English
For a long time Mitia lay motionless, huddled under the bedclothes.
His limbs felt paralyzed, his nerves blunted, no thought was in his
head, no desire in his heart, only an indistinct rumbling in his ears,
tedious, continuous. In a measure as he got warmed through he came
to himself. He felt oppressed and threw back the blanket. His little
sisters were going to bed. They were whimpering and Anton Egoritsch
silenced them with: “Hush! Keep quiet. You will wake Mitenka.” The boy
shudders at the voice, at the words. In the darkness he imagines that
very soon his father will cautiously open the door, come in on his
toes, and say in caressing tones: “Mitenka, are you rested, darling?
Well, then, dear, get up and practise; you know you must surprise
everybody to-morrow.” The words terrify him and he hides his head
fearfully under the coverings. Oh, that cursed to-morrow! Not one of
his playfellows has such a “to-morrow” to look forward to. Only grown
people are to perform. He will be the only child, and he has to appear
at this Grand Concert because he is something wonderful. Were it not
for this “to-morrow” he could play with the boys in the morning, and
run and jump and laugh as they do. He could be happy this evening at
the Klaiders’, where there is always so much brightness and heartiness,
where there are so many pleasant faces and such sounds of merry
laughter.
He can see it all. There is Klaider’s fair little sister, whose Saint’s
Day it is, dressed in a white frock, and there are many other small
boys and girls all playing, chattering, and dancing. Not one of them is
forced to achieve success in anything, or expected to astound anybody.
To-morrow! He will step on the platform looking pale, tired, and with
that nagging pain at his heart of which no one knows, and of which no
one takes any heed. If he should succeed it will only make matters
worse. He will be taken to receptions, concerts, dragged from city
to city. His father has said so. He dreams of it. Then he will never
again be free from the violin. The very thought of the violin fills
him with hatred and disgust. It is the violin which has deprived him
of all that brings joy to other children. There was a time when he
loved it, but it has tormented the life out of him, and now he detests
it. He experiences an inexpressible relief at the thought that it
could be shattered, cut in pieces, and flung into the gutter. He opens
his eyes and looks keenly in the direction where the violin stands.
His room, and the one next to it, where everybody is now asleep, are
perfectly dark. But what of that? He can discern that dreadful violin.
He fancies it is a living being, a wicked one, whose aim in existence
is to crush the life out of him while he is small, and to give him
no chance to grow and become a strong man. Yes, he can see it to its
minutest detail! Were the darkness a million times greater still he
would not cease to see it. Its outlines are too deeply impressed on his
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