Thus it went on day after day. Barbara lost something of her gloom; a
new feeling, strange and inexpressibly sweet, brought back freshness to
the life that had become almost a burden. Strong concentration was a
vital portion of her nature; her thoughts fixed on one object, clung to
it like ivy to a ruin; force itself could not tear them away. She asked
herself again and again, what it was that centred the best portion of
her nature around that youth--love! the blush of a haughty shame heated
her cheek as the word presented itself, disturbing the august repose of
her womanhood; besides, was not that heart closed and locked over one
image? In all those years had she kept it sacred to turn the golden key
at last, that a mere youth might jostle her idol in its sanctuary?
Barbara laughed at the thought, she dashed it aside with a strong will,
and contented herself with the remembrance that Norman had saved her
life, and that gratitude with her was stronger than the love of most
women. As for Norman, he never thought deeply in those years; he did not
even attempt to understand his own feelings; he had saved the life of a
woman whose presence and character filled him with the most profound
admiration; her society had opened a new phase of existence to him; he
did not quite know whether he had ceased to love Elizabeth or not; there
was no room in his thoughts for the question. In his passionate nature
the last sensation was sure to overwhelm all others, at least for the
time.
Elizabeth was young, and had not learned that most important lesson of
life, _how to wait_. To her this interest in another seemed an
infatuation that must last forever. The bitterness and grief of this
thought developed her character as a storm beats the flowers open. She
was no longer the childish creature who unlocked the door that eventful
morning for Norman Lovel; pride, resentment, a haughty power of
self-torture, had rendered her womanly like the rest.
At first Barbara made some effort to win the confidence of this young
girl, but the reserve with which her advances were met, soon chilled the
wish into indifference. Thus the two fell wider and wider apart,
stretching the thread of destiny which was sure to connect them at last,
till it grew small as the film of a spider's web, but never broke.
One day Elizabeth went into the chamber where Lady Phipps sat alone,
busy with some fine needle-work. She drew a stool, and seating herself
upon it, laid her head in the lady's lap, and looked up in her face with
a long, mournful gaze, that made that kind heart swell beneath its
lace-kerchief.
"Why, Bessy child, what is it troubles you? these heavy, heavy eyes
frighten me; is any thing the matter?"
"Oh, mother!" A warm color rushed into Lady Phipps's cheek at the word
mother; it was the first time that most sacred term had ever been
addressed to her.
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