Bildungsromans; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction
Here spoke the child who imagines that grown-up people have no excuse
to be anything but very good. There might be something worth pursuing
in that thought. A child might consider itself chained more inseverably
than one who apparently possesses the perfectiveness of free-will. Had
civilization complicated too unreasonably the problem of evil? It was a
commonplace to suppose that the sense of moral responsibility increased
with the opportunity of development, and yet after all was not the
reverse true?
“Why should it be easier to behave here than in Leppard Street?”
Michael asked. “I do wish you could understand it’s really so much more
difficult. I can’t distinguish what is wrong from what is right nearly
so well as you can.”
“Well, in my experience, and my experience has done its bit I can tell
you,” said Barnes in self-satisfied parenthesis. “In my experience most
of the difficulties in this world come from wanting something we
haven’t got. I don’t care what it is—a woman or a drink or a new suit
of clothes. Money’ll buy any of them. Give me ten pounds a week, and I
could be a bloody angel.”
“Supposing I offered you half as much for three months,” suggested
Michael. “Do you think you’d find life any easier while it lasted?”
“Well, don’t be silly,” said Barnes. “Of course I should. If you’d
walked home every night with your eyes on the gutter in case anybody
had dropped a threepenny bit, you’d think it was easier. It’s not a bit
of good your running me down, Fane. If you were me, you’d be just the
same. Those monks at the Abbey used to jaw about holy poverty. The man
who first said that ought to be walking about hell with donkey’s ears
on his nob. What’s it done for me? I ask you. Why, it’s made me so that
I’d steal a farthing from one blind man to palm it off as half-a-quid
on another.”
“Tell me about Leppard Street,” said Michael, laughing. “What’s it
like?”
“Well, you go and punch a few holes in a cheese rind. That’s what it
looks like. And then go and think yourself a rat who’s lost all his
teeth, and you’ve got what it feels like to be living in it.”
“Supposing I said I’d like to try?” asked Michael. “What would you
think?”
“Think? I shouldn’t think two seconds. I should know you were having a
game. What good’s Leppard Street to you, when you can sit here bouncing
up and down all day on cushions?”
“Experience,” said Michael.
“Oh, rats! Nothing’s experience that you haven’t had to do.”
“Well, I’ll give you five pounds a week,” Michael offered, “if you’ll
keep yourself free to do anything I want you to do. I shouldn’t want
anything very dreadful, of course,” he added.
It was difficult for Michael to persuade Barnes that he was in earnest,
so difficult indeed that, even when he produced five sovereigns and
offered them directly to him, he had to disclose partially his reason
for wishing to go to Leppard Street.
“You see, I want to find a girl,” he explained.
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