Sink or swim? : $b a novel; vol. 2/3Houstoun, Mrs. (Matilda Charlotte)
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Sink or swim? : $b a novel; vol. 2/3
Houstoun, Mrs. (Matilda Charlotte)
English fiction -- 19th century
Honor sat down on the edge of her narrow iron bedstead, and felt for the
moment like one dazed. All that during the last hour had occurred was so
widely different from her previous imaginings. Where was the sick-room,
the wasted invalid, the atmosphere of physic-bottles and of gloom?
Instead, had she not been received with chaff and cheerfulness? Was not
her father in apparently perfect health? And already, simultaneously
almost with her arrival, had not a visitor appeared, an intimacy with
whom her conscience warned her had better be avoided, and regarding
whom, as she was well aware, her mother-in-law had already thrown out
hints as uncalled for as they were offensive? And then, closely
following on these mental communings, there came the more searching
questions of, “What would John think of all this mean deceit? Would he
not, in his indignation at the trick, instantaneously require her
return?” Instantaneously? Yes! Honor felt well assured of that; John
Beacham was the last man in the world to suffer patiently such a
deception as had been practised upon him. He hated--of that too his wife
was well aware--the man who had deceived him, with as much of rancorous
feeling as he was capable of entertaining; and therefore any further
sojourn on her part under her father’s roof would, were John to become
cognisant of the truth, have been indignantly protested against. But, on
the other hand, Honor herself, though aware that she had been lured
under a false presence to Stanwick-street, was by no means disposed to
disclose this fact to one so deeply interested as was John in all that
so nearly concerned her safety and well-being. She was conscious, on the
contrary, of a very decided inclination to remain, for the present at
least, where she was. Of course this inclination--the mere passing of
the desire through her heart, to say nothing of the yielding to it--was
wrong, selfish, and unwifely to the most unpardonable extent. Honor,
too, was well aware that she was guilty in not driving from her, at the
very first onslaught, the tempter who assailed her. There was little
excuse, save in the weakness of our most imperfect human nature, for the
taking of this first dearly-bought step in wrong. It cost but little
trouble putting that wrong foot foremost. She had but to be passive,
nothing could be easier, and the affair, one might almost say, righted
itself. But facile as it all had seemed, and scarcely out of the common
order of things, the time came when that poor weak woman would have
given all of life that remained to her, could she have, by so doing,
annulled the decision of a moment, and thus averted all the terrible
consequences that followed thereupon.
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