Sink or swim? : $b a novel; vol. 3/3Houstoun, Mrs. (Matilda Charlotte)
General
Sink or swim? : $b a novel; vol. 3/3
Houstoun, Mrs. (Matilda Charlotte)
English fiction -- 19th century
and consternation which the certainty of her flight would cause. She
found herself for the first time in her life alone; alone, and left
solely to her own resources, not only for the support of existence (that
was to be an after and less important consideration), but left to
provide her own thoughts, to steady her own nerves--the nerves on which
a few short hours of loneliness were beginning to tell; left, in short,
to what is so unnatural a condition for the young and feeble--left to be
mistress of herself.
Two circumstances alone enabled Honor in that dreary upper chamber,
smelling of the stale tobacco used by a very inferior class of
“gentlemen lodgers,” and displaying in its dingy furniture and generally
shabby gentility unfailing evidences of wear and tear as well as of
slovenly and uncleanly habits--two circumstances alone enabled Honor to
bear with tolerable patience the situation in which she had voluntarily
plunged herself. In the first place, so prone are we to judge and draw
our decisions from effects without seeking after causes, Honor still
took a curious kind of comfort from the conviction that she was, in her
humble way, a martyr and a victim. This belief, which she hugged
perseveringly to her heart, was for a time a decided but gradually
lessening set-off against the _ennui_ which, creeping gradually over her
spirits, caused her to long exceedingly for the second and more tangible
form of consolation--namely, the advent of the only friend that in that
vast metropolis she could boast of possessing. The ideas of this young
woman from the country regarding the time requisite to convey a letter
from one district to another were somewhat vague and methodless; and
therefore it was that, long before the dainty little epistle, which she
trusted would bring Arthur to her side, had (in all probability) been
taken from the pillar-box into which she had thrown it, Honor had begun
to hope that her friend would ere long be by her side. In thus hoping it
never occurred to her that she was acting wickedly. It was true that
Arthur had, at the commencement of their friendship, uttered foolish
words that had startled, if not angered her; but she had given him to
understand plainly, though kindly, that such words were an offence and
an annoyance, and since that he had never--no, _never_, Honor repeated
to herself as the recollection of certain meaning glances and too tender
pressings of her yielded hand crowded thick upon her, and gave the lie
(deny the impeachment though she might) to her assertion--he had _never_
once appeared to view her in any other light than as a valued friend. Of
the birth of Arthur’s little son, and of the semi-imprisonment to the
house to which Mr. Vavasour had in consequence been condemned, Honor
knew nothing. To her the fact of his being a father, one with such a
title to respect and consideration as that name bestowed, would, had she
been aware of the event that had occurred in Hyde-park-gardens, have
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account