Country life -- England -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
Half child, half woman, Jane hovered strangely between fear and
fatalism. She loved Harry, but if there had been any budding of a
woman’s love in her it had been nipped by the revelation of his love for
Viola and flowed again only in the channels of her childish devotion.
There was something of the woman in the way she regarded him in
connection with Viola. One man for one woman to love and cherish. He
was hers when he had fallen captive to her; others only had that share
in him which she might grant to them. Jane had accepted Sidney as a
possible mate for Harry, and now she accepted Viola, whom she also loved
since she had come to Royd. There was no jealousy in her. Harry loved
her as he had always loved her; and Viola loved her. She felt almost as
if she had brought them together.
But in Jane’s childish view the recognition of this kind of love was the
closing of youth’s manuscript. She was uplifted by the idea of having a
pair of intimate married friends; but it would be different. She did
not ask herself in what way. It might be even more agreeable than
having two separate friends, but it would be different. So her view of
Harry was a backward one. She talked chiefly of him as he had been, and
Lady Brent, somewhat to her comfort, learnt to look upon Harry’s youth
also as a chapter in some sense closed, and as a very perfect chapter.
Whatever might happen, he had had that. And she had been instrumental
in fashioning his youth—a jewel to hang upon the neck of memory, whole
and flawless.
She would not disturb Jane with her fears, but the child divined them
and was often struck by foreboding, which she resisted with all her
might. In this also she gave comfort. Her optimism, fitting to her
youth and inexperience, was insistent, and would not be denied. Nothing
could happen to Harry worse than what had happened already. Nothing—she
seemed to frame her creed—could happen to one who was so loved.
The gods held the scales—life whole or life disabled on the one side,
death on the other. They dipped now this way, now that. What was it
that they threw into them? Was there any weight in the strong urgings
of those who thought they had learnt from them that they would incline
their ears to such utterances? Was there anything that might incline
them to spare one to whom they had shown their favours until now? Was
he not nearer to them in the tested quality of his manhood than the
generality of beings whom they sent to represent their godhead on earth?
Had they not fashioned him to shine in years to come as an example of
the kind of human stuff they could produce from their workshops? Had
they no further use for him in a world so largely populated with their
failures? Or were the tokens they threw into the scales nothing at all
but just the chances of time and space, so that this man’s righteousness
and that man’s worthlessness were of no account against the tick of a
watch or the ruled immutable path of a shard of iron?
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