Sir Jasper Carew: His Life and ExperienceLever, Charles
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Sir Jasper Carew: His Life and Experience
Lever, Charles
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“The Countess has told you nothing of your history,--nothing of your
circumstances? Well, you shall hear all from me. Indeed, there are facts
known to me with which she is unacquainted. For the present, Jasper,
I will tell you frankly that the humble pittance on which she lives is
insufficient for the additional cost of your support. I can contribute
nothing; I can be but a burden myself. From herself you would never hear
this; she would go on still, as she has done hitherto, struggling and
pinching, battling with privations, and living that fevered life of
combat that is worse than a thousand deaths. Raper, too, in his own
fashion, would make sacrifices for you; but would you endure the thought
of this? Does not the very notion revolt against all your feelings of
honor and manly independence? Yes, boy, that honest grasp of the hand
assures me that you think so! You must not, however, let it appear that
I have confided this fact to you. It is a secret that she would never
forgive my having divulged. The very discussion of it has cost us the
widest estrangements we have ever suffered, and it would peril the
continuance of our affection to speak of it.”
“I will be secret,” said I, firmly.
“Do so, boy; and remember that when I speak of your accompanying me
to Paris, you express your wish to see the capital and its brilliant
pleasures. Show, if not weary of this dreary existence here, that you at
least are not dead to all higher and nobler ambitions. Question me about
the life of the great world, and in your words and questions exhibit the
interest the theme suggests. I have my own plan for your advancement, of
which you shall hear later.”
He seemed to expect that I would show some curiosity regarding the
future, but my thoughts were all too busy with the present. They were
all turned to that home I was about to leave, to the fond mother I was
to part from, to honest Joseph himself,--my guide, my friend, and my
companion; and for what? An unknown sea, upon which I was to adventure
without enterprise or enthusiasm.
The Count continued to talk of Paris and his various friends there, with
whom he assured me I should be a favorite. He pictured the life of the
great city in all its brightest colors. He mentioned the names of many
who had entered it as unknown and friendless as myself, and yet, in
a few years, had won their way up to high distinction. There was a
vagueness in all this which did not satisfy me; but I was too deeply
occupied with other thoughts to question or cavil at what he said.
When we went back to supper, Raper was there to pay his respects to
the Count. De Gabriac received his respectful compliments coldly and
haughtily; he even interrupted the little address poor Joseph had
so carefully studied and committed to memory, by asking if he still
continued to bewilder his faculties with Greek particles and obsolete
dialects; and then, without waiting for his reply, he seated himself at
the table, and arranged his napkin.
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